Day 506 | Stuck with ‘Enough’ & ‘Trapped’ in Polarity

So I had looked at my definition of the word ‘enough’ in previous blog posts, see eg.

Day 501 | Investigating Self Awareness - From Reaction to Creation
and
Day 502 | Enough is Enough! ...And I am It!

I realized I was stuck in this word/idea of 'enough'.

Looking at my experience with the word enough (see previous blog) and at the word enough:

e no ugh

which I can look at to mean

energy - no - its ugh

Energy being the bipolar energetic (mental/emotional) ‘ups and downs’ that direct and drive one’s experience in life, in the end through one’s own acceptance and allowance – through what and how one thinks about oneself and about others/the world.

What I learned is: When you are dealing with an ENERGY - name the energy and give the energy direction.

It is about slowing down and looking at the point directly.

In looking at my energetic experience I saw that I was dealing with my created/formed/accepted definition of the word ‘enough’ – and within that, with thoughts, emotions and experiences of ‘I am not enough’.

What was happening is, within self - I have had enough of these energy games (making self feel shit, thinking I am not enough or my life is of no significance, devaluing self, self-sabotage) - And within this I thus started searching for a way of stopping it - But instead of just stopping it - I was looking for something to fill it –

And in this case I was looking at the words contentment and self-acceptance- as a way to fill /replace this ugh energy, which is also the energetic definition/expression of the words ‘I am enough’ – they are supposed to make self feel ‘content’ / ‘feel better’. Which is how I came to the idea of ‘I am enough’ as a solution, not realizing I was just trying to balance-out the negative polarity, still accepting deep inside the point of ‘being not enough’.

So, the dimension of 'being enough' as ‘self-acceptance’ – which is an attempt to ‘fill the void’ with something positive – creates a fake ‘contentment’ within limitation, because here 'being enough' is supposed to make oneself 'feel better' - But it has the starting point of being 'less than'.

What I’m realizing is that once you have lived one polarity of a word/expression, the habit is to go to the other extreme of the polarity, so as to just 'get out of' the negative living for instance. But once you have gone to the opposite polarity living and expressed it, you find that it was just again another polarity; and as such - you will start to 'tone' down the two polarities - until self is able to see the neutral point within it.

The neutral point within any word redefined is when you have found the expression of what this word means as a physical expression - Thus mot making it more or less than what it is as a physical expression of itself

I will continue with the neutral point and the word ENOUGH in my next post.

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Day 505 | REACTION vs CREATION revisited

Continuing from

Day 504 |  The Importance of Immediate Responsibility

See also

Day 501 | Investigating Self-Awareness - From Reaction to Creation

Another important aspect in all of this is the following:

If we are not the ones Moving and Driving ourselves in self-awareness in every moment, then we are automatically being Moved and Driven by our conditioned and often subconscious reaction-patterns, remaining within the bounds of what we have accepted about ourselves and the world, limiting our response-ability and our own freedom of expression and participation in this reality.

Old habits die hard, they say, and there’s nothing more obvious and nothing the human society should look into and investigate more urgently:

How is it that conditioned consciousness systems and programs within ourselves (whereby we as the human species had separated ourselves more and more from this physical reality/world and so also more and more from our physical bodies, and retracted ourselves more into our minds, so much so that this entire world system is effected by and reflects our ‘human nature’ as each one’s inner relation to everything and everyone else) have apparently more power and more directive authority when it comes to who and how to be in this world, than our own beingness;

Why is it then that our conditioned responses and habitual patterns take the lead and lead us into often unwanted results?

It would seem that such habits literally inhabit us, exist and live through us, create our lives and relationships for us, while we give up on ourselves as we give up on our self-responsibility by MISSING the Reality that is Here in every moment and within that missing the opportunity and the chance to manifest CHANGE, manifest solutions, manifest common sense; instead of going into and following the automatic emotional reactions and energetic movements as outflows of our conditioned consciousness where we secretly think things about others and about ourselves and so often victimize ourselves and blame others: just to avoid that one point of self-responsibility that would forever set us free.

Where is our self leadership? Who or what is the real authority within self? And why?

Wow – some people really did a good job setting up that whole fraud of an education system that we have in this world as well as all those skewed belief-systems this world consciousness has been woven around…

Well, it’s about time to open our eyes and Look Direct, learn to see things for what they are, out there in the world and in here within ourselves; lift those dusty webs and clear the temple. Temple, hmm, makes me think of the words “heaven on earth” – but why the hell not?!

Much more on this and further insights on the point of absolute self-responsibility (and wouldn’t absolute self-responsibility imply absolute self-freedom?!) – in this interview series on Self Leadership (274ff.)

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Day 504 | The Importance of Immediate Response Ability

Continuing from my previous blog post, I am here looking at procrastination.

We all know that procrastination tends to leave us regretful or shameful. We all are able to see how procrastination `emerges´ from a point of denial or resistance.

That point of denial or resistance actually also shows that we are implicitly placing ourselves as in one way or another inferior to that something or someone we deny or resist, that something or someone we postpone dealing with –

This is a simple example of the 1+1 common sense of self-honesty. It’s fascinating that in our education systems, in our world in general, we do not learn such deductive, critical-thinking approach to ourselves and our reality, a reality which after all emerges and forms through the interaction of ourselves with our environment and other human beings.

But, before we look at the bigger picture, let’s bring it back to the small – bring it back to self.

Because it is within Who Self Is that everything is being determined in Each One Life;

So we are all in fact self-responsible, meaning that everything we are experiencing and are faced with within our inner reality: we have been part of creating and manifesting. YET – we often do not even see How, and we have still not realized that absolute point of self-responsibility and what it entails. Everyone is able to find within themselves a point of blame towards others (as subtle as it may seem it is there) which is the point where we shift responsibility to ‘others’, failing to see that by doing so we are abdicating not only responsibility – we are abdicating our POWER.

In this context – I am coming back to the point I started this post with, namely the importance of immediate movement. When there is immediate self movement in every moment, with every breath, in self-awareness, in self-honesty (Man Know Thyself), then obviously there is no room for procrastination, nor for denial to begin with.

If I am Here in every moment – which I am since my body is here breathing in every moment, thus I can shift my awareness to Me Here as a physical being in this physical reality – then that means that I am in a position here to direct myself, to lead myself, to move myself according to each moment/context based on my self-honesty and practical common sense;

From such starting-point within the realization of absolute self-responsibility (response-ability) I find the will and the power to move myself through any resistances that may arise within me towards facing a particular something or someone within my reality and thus direct the point in common sense, simplistically, directly, and with clarity.

Easier said than done, you may think and you’d be right – which is why we must in fact train and push ourselves to the point of finding within ourselves that spark of life, let´s call it that, as Will-Power, or self-drive, to move beyond the pettiness of what has become of human consciousness. Wouldn´t that be real Free Will?

Now – if we look at what resistances are and what denial is:

it is that which keeps you from facing a point, but let’s put it bluntly: it is that which YOU use in order to not see, to not have to deal with, to not take responsibility for – whatever it is you are facing.

It’s fascinating how we separate things, people, moments, experiences, from ourselves because somehow we fear responsibility (ah well done education system!), somehow we feel inferior, somehow we feel this or that – any excuse would do to just not have to deal with this right now.

And somehow we manage to make things so much bigger than they are – funny again how obvious it is: WE are the ones defining everything, WE are the ones making something bigger or smaller just to justify how we `feel´ about it, while we are trapped in a box of polarities, balancing around `positives´ and `negatives´ just so as to make it ‘seem all-right’, just so as to ‘feel good’ or ‘feel better’, but never really getting to the core of everything – which is ourselves.

…to be continued

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Day 503 | Satisfaction within Being Directive in Communication

These days I had some time off and I took the opportunity to write some emails on a subject that I had put quite behind on my list of priorities.

As I was writing the emails and communicating some points to the people involved in the particular project, I realized that I had projected expectations, both onto myself and onto others, and that the more I had postponed directing the point the more I would resist it and slide it further down my list of priorities.

So here obviously we have a case of procrastination, and I´ll be going into this particular point in my next blog post; in this post however I would like to share this simplistic yet fulfilling experience of satisfaction within the context of me taking up communication within the particular project and writing some emails to give the point direction. The satisfaction coming from the starting-point of self-movement, realizing that “I just did it” and “hey it wasn’t that bad or that difficult after all”.

And suddenly also realizing that the key to movement is within effective and practical communication, and most importantly: direct / directive communication  –

This is then opening up another key point, namely that of `self communication´, i.e. who and how we are within and toward ourself;

Because obviously, how can we want or expect effective communication with others, when we within ourselves have no effective self communication, in terms of self-honesty – for instance within how we approach things or people, how we look at others and at ourselves, things we even hide from ourselves like fears and inferiorities and motives, things we deny or suppress, things we ignore or refuse to consider, the expectations that we project, the judgments that we cast, how we shift responsibility to ´others’… hmm, that´s quite a list isn´t it, and it all comes down to `self communication´ and thus the self-honesty of who we are within and toward ourselves and our own inner processes, both mental and emotional.

So – communication – let´s have a look: Communication consists of words, which consist of definitions and meanings, which is something like symbols and signs.

Now – when the signs we exchange are not clear and/or when the symbols we use are not seen for what they are (let alone that people often have different interpretations/values/meanings for the same symbol, an infamous example all can relate to being the word ` love´), then it’s unlikely that communication will be clear, direct, and effective.

Here I’m therefore also sharing the importance of developing effective communication skills, effective looking and seeing skills, which is essentially the ability to see and assess reality with unbiased clarity.

Within this, WRITING is an awesome tool towards CLARITY, as within Writing we are able to transfer what is inside (the mind) into the outside (the physical: here, written out on paper or print) and check it against reality, self-honesty and practical common sense; to then make evaluations and corrections where required, aligning thus our thoughts, words and deeds, from the inside to the outside, and taking self-responsibility and establishing response-able self communication.

Getting ourselves to clear and direct communication is a vital life skill and assists us in realizing the self-directive will that can be ‘found’ within self-honesty and self-awareness, cross-referenced with common sense physical reality.

Yep – writing, communicating, taking responsibility for points in my life, being directive within communication: this is, I find, something truly fulfilling, something wherein we are even able to self-realize our creative ability and in-form ourselves to human beings that will redefine the term ‘human nature’ by living a new paradigm of the things everyone wishes for: peace, freedom, brotherhood, dignity of life and fun!

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Day 502 | Enough is Enough! ...And I am It!

Continuing from: 

Day 501 | Investigating Self-Awareness - From Reaction to Creation

I've observed an interesting 'experience' within my life, basically boiling down to ‘the experience of my life’ with the constant lurking feeling of not being 'enough', like a constant feeling of lack, inadequacy, loss - or perhaps more to the point: the fear of being inadequate, being at loss, not being 'enough'. And from that fear arises (as its opposite polarity) the desire to 'compensate' for all that negativity –

which not only results in a constant stress factor but also in the end it results in the manifestation of that which one fears, just like a self-fulfilling prophecy; 

because by the mere acceptance of the words 'not enough' as my living experience, as me, as my life - I had tacitly given permission for those words to be my starting-point, and thus for me to become that.

(Remember: "if you know the beginning, you know the end." In other words, we are here looking at the point of Cause and Effect, and the fact that we always become who we are, meaning that our life's creation is the result of the 'seed' that is our programming; the result of everything that we have accepted about ourselves: judgments, beliefs, limitations, definitions, experiences...)

Now - once I realized that I'd spent a life of restlessness really, I have since been working on forgiving and letting go of that/such idea and belief and emotional experience, and thus also of the manifested consequences thereof on physical level.

For instance, I am practicing how to REST effectively, as in: letting-go and accepting that I am ‘enough’. I am here, therefore I am enough. This way I am supporting myself to no longer allow myself to be driven by and into the rush of energy and the consequences thereof; but to instead move step by step, breath by breath, simplistically grounded – a most challenging approach for the mind lol

In this process I am learning to truly be with me and to be here for me; learning to embrace myself and to accept that I am here and that I am ‘enough’; to thus also practically support myself and live constructively. 

And by living this application - for a moment letting go, Breathing, simply Being Here with Me, embracing myself in self-acceptance - even for one moment every now and then throughout my day: assists me in establishing that equilibrium, that self-acceptance of "I am here, therefore I am enough" as my starting-point, as my ground, my foundation, wherein I know who I am: I am here breathing, and that is ENOUGH.

Within this, I am discovering self-contentment - which is quite an interesting experience that I had never known this way, as I was always kinda extending myself 'out there', trying and trying and trying to make it all 'more'.

What a mindfuck!

As I said, in my life I always had the accepted experience that “I am not enough” and “my life is not enough” and “things are not going well enough” and “I am not loved enough” etc. so that I constantly had the experience of “not enough” with the result that I’d always be in a state of projecting myself into ‘something more’ lol very tiresome shit – so now I finally get to the point of re-training myself to live self-contentment and self-support for real, grounding myself and no longer ‘running after’ ‘something more’ or not being able to stop working or thinking or trying to figure things out in my mind – I am practicing the STOP.

So I can now do and enjoy simple things in my life, like for example wrapping myself into my cozy blanket and reading a book and really enjoying the comfort of the blanket and my reading of my book without thoughts distracting me from the here-moment; or giving myself a nice oil massage after an evening shower and enjoying the self-contentment of how I support myself as a physical being. 

From here, I see that I am now getting to the 'real questions', because really: What am I doing for me? How do I treat me? Who am I with and toward myself? Who and how do I want to be/live?

Because as long as that self-relationship is not in equilibrium, is not in equality and oneness - How can we expect to have fulfilling relationships in our lives? How can we give to anyone else, if we cannot really GIVE to ourselves?

Yes, I know, it IS simplistic, however it’s one thing to ‘know’ these things intellectually, and quite another to actually live and apply them, and make them a real living part of ‘Who I Am’!

So, in terms of self-support, I would really suggest for anyone reading this to have a look at the above 'questions to self', and look at the already manifested answers: as how that self-relationship was being lived thus far. Look at this in self-honesty and really investigate whether you've really been supporting yourself unconditionally. THEN, look at redefining the answers into actual self-support by CHANGING how you live your answers and establishing a real self-relationship of equilibrium, of oneness and equality within self.

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Day 501 | Investigating Self Awareness - From Reaction to Creation

I was going to give this blog post the title “The End is the Beginning” or “The End of Me” lol - Why? Because I am at an interesting point where I am ready to give up 'the old me' without self-spite.
It simply isn't bringing it anymore lol, it’s too small, too limited, too self-absorbed - the 'old me' i.e. all habits and conditions and limitations and definitions and judgments and reactions and patterns that make-up the 'who I am' as the 'me' I have been as who and what I had created myself into, which is what the result of my life, my conditions and my relationships is basically showing me, reflecting back to be like a mirror.

But instead of approaching the 'old me' in self-judgment and self-loathing, within that in essence sabotaging myself and my ability to expand and change - I now apply a constructive approach.
At the same however, the awareness and decision is here that Enough is Enough! That I commit myself to assist and support myself in the process of stop existing as mere Reactions and start Living in a process of actual Creation.
I will no longer limit myself, I will no longer accept anxiety and stress to be the driving forces in my life, I will no longer follow the experience of negativity, of lack, of inadequacy, of anything for that matter that serves only to belittle me and keep me confined in a 'controlled environment' that is my mind/consciousness, the 'old me' that has felt 'safe' within its own self-imprisonment...

Which brings us to the point of self-creation. It is our acceptances and allowances that we hold within ourselves/our minds that in the end determine who and how we are. We are always the judge, and we are always the one that gives permission as to what we will accept about ourselves and where we will set our limitations!
We always create ourselves - and it seems we only have one real choice in life:
to either give ourselves up to the systems of consciousness and let 'them' (i.e. conditioning, habit, belief systems etc.) lead the way, to 'carry' us, to tell us who we are, what we need, what we desire, what we must fear, what we can and cannot do – and thus create ourselves ‘blindly’, in unawareness, through/as our REACTIONS;
OR to take directive leadership within ourselves and make Real Choices - which implies in fact absolute self-responsibility, realizing that what will become of me and what I will make out of my life is entirely up to me. Here it’s about actual self CREATION, in awareness.

(Granted, within the current world system there do exist physical limitations based on the socioeconomic conditions that each one is born into, but we're only fooling ourselves if we use that as an excuse or justification for why we are not making the BEST out of our lives, the BEST of ourselves, to the BEST of our ability.)

Interestingly enough those Real Choices I have referred to are not measured in ‘small’ and ‘big’, nor are they 'out there' somewhere; they are Here in every moment - as every moment defines who we are.
Thus we either ‘find’ and establish self awareness by in fact Being Aware in every moment that is here in this physical reality, thus seeing things for what they are and directing ourselves in the context of Reality, determining thus 'who I am' in every moment as a self-movement in awareness, an act of self-leadership;
OR we simply FOLLOW the conditioned and habitual reactions as the emotional-, thought- and behavior-patterns we have become, and accept/allow them to move us and to determine who we are.

So, looking in self-honesty at the consequences and confinements of where our conditioned patterns can lead us, I cannot but state Enough is Enough.
Which brings me to an interesting point that opened up when I looked at this word, the word ENOUGH, more in-depth. I will elaborate on this in my next post.

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