Continuing from
What I’m realizing is that once you have lived one
polarity of a word/expression, the habit is to go to the other extreme of the
polarity, so as to just 'get out of' the negative living for instance. But once
you have gone to the opposite polarity living and expressed it, you find that
it was just again another polarity; and as such - you will start to 'tone' down
the two polarities - until self is able to see the neutral point within it.
The neutral point within any word redefined is when
you have found the expression of what this word means as a physical expression
- Thus mot making it more or less than what it is as a physical expression of
itself
The neutral point is the point of stating it directly.
For instance with the word ENOUGH:
The definition that I am looking for in the process of
purifying the word from its energetic attachments I had created/accepted about
it - is the definition that describes the expression of the word.
In speaking the word ENOUGH the expression I Hear and
See is:
Stop.
For example if you're getting your glass filled at
some point you say thanks that's enough.
It means 'full' / can't take anymore
That’s it. Simple.
The solution is always a multiple times
simpler than the problem.
Another thing I learned is that:
The
mind will try and 'fix' the problem - by giving it something that the mind
thinks will help it.
This is not how things work –
<<You are not able to 'fix' things - You are only able to direct things
so as to create what you are the master creator of.
Thus - Go back to the source
– look and see for yourself what you have accepted and allowed - and then
direct the points as to how you want to create your reality.>>
>>The concept "I am enough" is trying
to 'fill the void' and the 'void' is created by all the things that everybody
has for my entire life told me of who I should be / how I should live / what is
the correct way of living / what everybody thinks the right way of living is /
etc.
And if I do not meet up to these expectations
(expectations that self had made one’s own) - Then the 'void' comes lurking -
Making statements of / creating feelings of ‘not being enough’ - to which the
mind will then respond: Hey look at me - I can take this moment under my
blankets and 'feel enough'! But this is all just a cover for the already
accepted expectations of self.
To go to source means that self investigates these
expectations - and one by one decide what it is that self would like to live or
is able to live - and then creating these points for oneself<<
An interesting outflow/manifestation/consequence that
I can see within all this is also: how me allowing myself to be trapped within
emotional/energetic/value experiences of ‘not enough’ and ‘must get/be enough’, trying to ‘find’ value while I was separating myself from self-worth and
real self-acceptance as in: the power and will to decide, state, and enact as
in express the actual physical meaning of the word Enough – making choices in
life that will support me, instead of indulging in patterns and habits as
attempts to ‘fulfill’ this ‘desire’;
And thus what I can see is how my being trapped in an
emotional bipolar state as value-system (balancing on the tip of the pyramid of a mental idea
of ‘value’/’worth’ that is skewed, as it is based on the consciousness system
that rules this world within and without) kept me from finding stability within myself, as myself, in self-worth and value of life;
And because I was 'lost' in mental/energetic polarity definitions of the word 'enough', I wasn't living the actual definition/expression of ENOUGH - and I wasn't stopping the 'search for...' that which would 'fulfill me' and make me 'enough' but instead trying to 'find' 'fulfillment' in separation from myself.
I had robbed myself of the power to be
the one who gives myself the value as worthy of life, in life, by
deciding/living Who I Am in awareness in all my relationships and relations,
and not allowing myself for example to participate where there is no respect
and no regard for life for real.
So here I realize I have to look at ‘my expectations’ and ‘my desires’, that
which I have defined as ‘more’ or as ‘goal’ or as something I must be before I
can accept myself and allow myself to live. Wherein, I have used points and people in life to try and get/find acceptance or validation or value, but actually I was seeking to validate the positive and negative polarity ideas I held about myself and my reality. I mean, it’s crazy if you really
look at it, we adopt and ‘inherit’ so many formats of thought and emotion, we
have issues with value/acceptance/validation, we develop expectations that are not even our own, and we give everything and everyone around us
the power to influence and define us - whether that is through positive or negative definitions and relationships. Parents play a major role here, and it is
from parents that a revolution and evolution of what we call ‘human nature’ may
emerge, an actual evolution that comes from e-value-ation and understanding,
from will power and creative response-ability.
So obviously I'll be investigating my expectations, because for self to 'feel less than' there must be in the mind some opposite-polarity projections of me as 'more than' or at least as 'enough' - expectations towards self. Time for some reality check.
…to be continued
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