Day 135: WANT HOME - "Here" & "There": How Definitions Define Us | Stopping Projections to LIVE HERE

ART by Damian Ledesma

This is continuing from

Day 128: Standing Up from Falling in Love

Day 129: Alternate Reality Creation in Backchat - The Enemy Within

Day 130: Want Home - "Here" and "There"
Day 131: Want Home - "Here" and "There" | Self Realization Commitments
Day 132: Want Home - "Here" and "There" | How Definitions Define Self
Day 133: Want Home - "Here" and "There" | How Definitions Define Us | Self Forgiveness and Commitment
Day 134: "Here" and "There" - How Definitions Define Us | Man as the Living Word

I am within this blog post concluding on the points that opened up since I looked into the words WANT and HOME.
For context see my previous blog posts.

 
So I had seen, realized and understood how I had created a projection of myself as a ´desire´ which I projected out "there", charging it with ´positive´ feelings, in an attempt to ignore, escape and cover up the accepted definitions of me "here".
And I had seen, realized and understood how within defining my projection "there" as ´positive´, I was accepting a definition of me "here" as negative.
I had per acceptance and allowance defined me "here" within and as restlessness, which has been an experience of ´being on the run´, while I defined me "there" within a projection of ´finding peace´ and finally getting ´home´.

From this I also created the perception that there is somthing ´wrong´ with me here, and that ´getting there´ will make everything ´right´.
Within this I in fact created this fear of "what if I am doing the wrong thing / what if I´m at the wrong place / what if this isn´t the right time..." - and obviously I had inevitably created the other side of the polarity construct as the want / need / desire to ´do the right thing´ which in a way ended up becoming this need to ´control´ my reality into ´being right´, ´doing the right thing´, being at the ´right´ place in the ´right´ time. You can imagine the inner conflict, insecurity and self-doubt this accepted polarity construct resulted into. Is it then a wonder that I created my experience as being ´on the run´, that I have been existing in constant restlessness?


I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to exist in a constant search / desire / need / WANT for ´peace´ within a concept/idea of finally ´getting HOME´ which I projected out "there" - instead of allowing myself to find peace here within and as who I am in every moment and be home here with me as I breathe here.

I forgive myself that I hadn´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that my experience was created through my own accepted definitions, wherein I had trapped myself in polarity constructs of "here" and "there", ´right´ and ´wrong´, ´positive´ and ´negative´, creating inner conflict and self-doubt within myself - instead of accepting Me Here, accepting Here as the actuality of my reality and approaching it in self-honesty and practical common sense to within that live solutions in every here moment rather than projecting solutions and ´waiting´/´hoping´ for them to come true out "there" somehwere/somehow.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to live the realization that HOME is where I am, and I am here breathing, therefore home is here.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that to WANT is to claim and accept that I am not, that I do not have, that I lack, that I need to get -
and therefore that WANT is a consciousness construct that exists within and as the bipolar perception of ´positive´ and ´negative´, whereby the want itself is projected in separation from self  out "there" as ´positive´, while per implication self here is defined as ´negative´ due to accepted ´lack´.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to exist in restlessness within an experience of being ´on the run´, instead of realizing I was in fact running from myself /my experience of myself - which is in fact impossible.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to create an idea of ´finding peace´ which I projected out "there" - instead of investigating in self-honesty why I was not at peace with myself here.

I commit myself to showing that only once we establish ´HOME´ within and as ourselves, where no more inner conflict, judgment, or doubt is accepted or allowed: will we in fact be able to manifest HOME here for all, on this earth, as one life, equally honored and supported in all possible ways;
and that only when all inner conflict is seen, realized and taken responsibility for to be stopped/directed as best for life: will we in fact be able to manifest an existence on earth without war, without fear, without the fight for survival.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that only once we have individually taken the responsibility to stop all inner conflict and establish ourselves within and as inner peace in actuality, not as delusions/ideas/projections of ´peace´: will we be able to in fact manifest PEACE on EARTH for all life as equals, as One.

I commit myself to showing how we are the result of our own creation, whereby we create ourselves through acceptances and allowances and the definitions we form through a bipolar consciousness - resulting to infinite cycles of delusion, abuse, fear and self-interest, the consequences of which are manifest HERE on earth for all to SEE and take responsibility for: OUR CREATION.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense urgency of taking responsibility for our creation, so that we stop creating consequences through our acceptances and allowances, and instead take self-responsibility and stand-up as life, and commit ourselves to understanding creation as ourselves -
so that we may take back the directive-principle we abdicate to consciousness and start re-creating ourselves and our world into soemthing that is truly worthy of LIFE.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that unless we understand in detail how we have created and manifested this hell on earth, within and without: we cannot possibly re-create ourselves and our world into an existence of actual freedom, dignity and support of LIFE.

I commit myself to sharing the importance of investigating our words, definitions, beliefs and all our acceptances and allowances as the things we take for granted - because within that we will realize how we have been slaves to our own consciousness, from which we even try to hide to not have to take responsibility for -
in spite of the obvious fact that it is the accepted ´human nature´ that creates this world as we know it, clearly seen within the fact that a new born child has no concept of fear, competition, self-interest; no thoughts, no emotional- or feeling-patterns; but is simply a physical being communicating unconditionally and directly with everything that is here.

I commit myself to showing that it is possible to free ourselves from the prison of the mind and stop this polarity creation that has been a tyrann to life - and substantiate ourselves and our existence as life in the physical, acknowledging our interconnectedness and interdependence as LIFE and therefore LIVING in a way that honors life as "give what you would like to receive"  and "do unto your neighbor what you would like to have done unto yourself".




Read up on the MIND and CREATION:
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://desteni.org/articles

For support and participation visit:
http://forum.desteni.org
http://equalmoney.org/forum/
http://desteniIprocess.com

Visit my Blog sites:
http://breath-expression.blogspot.com
http://equal-money-revolution.blogspot.com
http://earthglobalreview.wordpress.com

@ eqafe for FREE:
* Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* How I was able to Hear the Desteni Message <<< PDF Download - Blog Compilation
* What the FAQ in an Equal Money System – Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* Hell Spoof <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality
* What makes me Starve in a World of Plenty <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality

ART by Matti Freeman

Day 133: Want Home - "Here"&"There" | How Definitions Define Us - Self Forgiveness & Commitment

ART by Damian Ledesma

 

 

This is continuing from

Day 128: Standing Up from Falling in Love

Day 129: Alternate Reality Creation in Backchat - The Enemy Within

Day 130: Want Home - "Here" and "There"
Day 131: Want Home - "Here" and "There" | Self Realization Commitments
Day 132: Want Home - "Here" and "There" | How Definitions Define Self

 

So, I am continuing having a look into my definitions of “Here” and “There” in the context of WANT and HOME and how I through my definitions and mental projections had separated myself from the actuality of my reality and my responsibility within that, separated Me from What is Here as Me and How I experienced myself throughout my life –

and I continue with self-forgiveness and self commitment statements on the points that I opened up:

 

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be aligned to a definition of "there" which I imagined and created in my mind and charged it over time with feelings of 'positive', 'peace', 'stop running, 'having arrived', 'home', 'fulfilment'.

 

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to create an idea of “there” as a projection of myself, defined as: 'peace', 'stop running, 'having arrived', 'home', 'fulfilment'; thus charged as a ‘positive’ feeling –

within this not considering that through the acceptance of this projection as ‘valid’ and ‘positive’ = I was accepting Me Here as ‘invalid’ and ‘negative’.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to define and accept Me Here as ‘invalid’ and ‘negative’.

 

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the more I wished for and charged the ‘positive’ projection as my idea of “there” and “getting there”, the more I implied a definition of Me Here as ‘negative’ – and thus the less able I became in directing Me Here, directing my Here into effective Living in self-support, self-expression, self-acceptance.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to place “value” into a projection “out there”, within this depriving Me Here of any value and per implication thus defining Me Here as ‘powerless’ and ‘unworthy’.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see that we can only “get there” through all the steps we take in every “here”-moment with every breath. So it is the Here that determines the “there” – it is the present that determines the future. It is who I am in every moment that accumulates, forms and determines who I am becoming, who I will be.

I forgive myself that I hadn´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within placing all value, all power, all attention “there” – I had implicitly accepted/defined myself Here as ‘worthless’ and ‘powerless’ and therefore I was within that in fact creating the “there” equally as ‘worthless’ and ‘powerless’ as my accepted definition of “here”, in spite of wishing for and dreaming of the 'positive'.

I forgive myself that I hadn´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within the definitions I had formed/accepted, I had defined the positive through the negative, the negative being my experience of myself “here”, the positive being my wishful-thinking projected out “there”;

and that within this, positive and negative, the “here” and “there” are polarity constructs that cannot exist alone as theyare defined by and through each-other = the TRAP of POLARITY.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am able to see things for what they are, from the starting-point of equality and oneness;

and that from this starting-point I am able to see, realize and understand HOW I create/accept the value-judgments of ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ which I then allow to DEFINE the mental and emotional experience of myself – thus allowing ENERGY as POLARITY as the MIND to direct and define Me and the experience of Me, instead of ME being the directive-principle of ME as the authority/the author of myself and my existence within and as self-equality and oneness.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that ENERGY is our interpretation of reality into mental values of ‘positive’/ ‘more than’/ ‘superior’ and ‘negative’/ ‘less than’/ ‘inferior’, and that it is from these VALUE-JUDGMENTS that the various levels of ‘feelings’ (positive) and ‘emotions’ (negative) emerge and direct our experience, based on the equations of values and definitions that we form /accept /allow to exist within self in separation from self.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to CHARGE these definitions (words, thoughts, ideas, pictures, imaginations) through further THINKING about them, in spite of noticing that thinking and indulging in feelings/emotions as if they were ‘real’ in fact perpetuates our emotional attachment to the words, thoughts, ideas, pictures, imaginations and thus perpetuates our ADDICTION to ENERGY, wherein we remain SLAVES to ENERGY within and as the mind, trapped in alternate realities that only exist in the mind, yet determine our experience and behaviour in our external reality.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to seem realize and understand how we trap ourselves in vicious cycles of ENEGRY through bipolar thoughts, backchat, feelings, emotions, that seem to never end / never stop – because we continue participating in them, continue abdicating our directive-principle to the MIND, in the BELIEF that we are ‘right’ to see things the way we do in the mind and in the FAITH that maybe someday we’ll get “there” and our dreams and desires will finally be ‘fulfilled’ as we project them in the mind.

 

 

I realize that we interpret reality through the mind, the consciousness of which we form through mental value-judgments as ‘positive’/ ‘more than’/ ‘superior’ and ‘negative’/ ‘less than’/ ‘inferior’ – which is the ‘logic’ that is presented to us by this world consciousness system;

and that it is from these VALUE-JUDGMENTS that the various levels of ‘feelings’ (positive) and ‘emotions’ (negative) emerge as ENERGETIC CHARGES, which we then experience as so ‘overwhelming’ within self that we allow them to direct and determine our lives, based on the equations of values and definitions we form as our ‘logic’ –

which in essence becomes something like a self-religion that blinds self from the actuality of one’s reality.

 

I commit myself to investigating and releasing any and all value-judgments that I formed/accepted/allowed about myself and my world, to no longer exist in separation from the actuality of my reality but instead see things/me for what they are.

I commit myself to showing how ENERGY is merely our interpretation of reality in separation from the actuality of reality as cause and effect – and that therefore by abdicating our directive-principle to energy and following energy like a ‘god’, allowing it to determine our decisions and perceptions in life:

we are not seeing things for what they are and thus not understanding the consequences of our creation, the consequences of who we are, which would in fact allow us to make informed decisions and CHANGE the CAUSE of ourselves thus changing the EFFECT we have on LIFE as ourselves and as a whole.

I realize that by THINKING about the ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ definitions/concepts/beliefs we accept/allow/create: We are in fact CHARGING these definitions energetically, which perpetuates our attachment to ENERGY as ADDICTION;

and that indulging in feelings/emotions as if they were ‘real’ in fact perpetuates our emotional attachment to the accepted definitions/concepts/beliefs, and thus perpetuates our ADDICTION to ENERGY, wherein we remain a SLAVE to ENERGY within and as the mind, trapped in alternate realities that only exist in the mind, yet determine our experience and behaviour in our external reality.

I commit myself to stopping the conditioned existence of my mind and releasing myself from the polarity charges that I’ve assigned to words/definitions through mental concepts/belief, by purifying my words and re-defining my living application to be free of polarity/energy – so that I may be the directive-principle of me, in self-honesty and practical common sense in consideration of cause and effect and thus consequence; to stop creating consequences for myself and life as a whole, in the realization that the HELL we face on earth individually and collectively is the manifested consequence of who we are and what accept and allow within and without.

When and as I see myself going into / following / believing a ‘feeling’/’positive’-projection or ‘emotion’/’negative’-projection that comes up within me: I stop, I breathe, and I look at the cause and effect of my experience –

to no longer accept or allow myself to be a SLAVE to ENERGY within and as the mind, to no longer accept or allow myself to create alternate realities that only exist in the mind yet determine my experience and behaviour, to no longer accept or allow my conditioned consciousness to determine who I am and how I participate in the actuality of my reality.

I realize that thoughts, feelings and emotions exist within bipolar designs and reveal the TRAP of consciousness as POLARITY.

 

Therefore I commit myself to stop following the conditioned consciousness I have come to define myself by, and to through self-honesty, self-forgiveness and self-corrective responsibility set myself free from the patterned cycles of ENERGY;

to no longer exist like an organic robot following instructions of input–output that were integrated within my mind without my awareness or directive-principle, but only through my allowance and the acceptance of my submission to a SYSTEM which I did not understand or have the tools to investigate when I was a child.

I realize that in self-honesty we have no other choice than FACING OURSELVES and the experience of ourselves HERE in every moment, understanding How we create ourselves and our experience of ourselves through the value-judgments we assign to ourselves and others in COMPARISON based on the consciousness concepts of ‘superiority’/‘inferiority’, ‘positive’/‘negative’, ‘more than’/ ‘less than’.

Within that I commit myself to taking self-responsibility: to stop the destruction of ourselves through separation, value-judgments and polarity-constructs and to instead become the directive-principle of ourselves as life that will set forth constructive solutions to be lived as self-support, self-expression, self-recreation.

Therefore, when and as I see myself going into perceiving Me Here as ‘negative’ and/or going into future-projection of ‘positive’: I stop, I breathe, and I bring myself back here, within and as the actuality of my reality, to see, realize and understand How I create me and my experience of me, to stop the value-judgments, and direct myself in self-honesty and practical common sense, no longer accepting or allowing myself to separate myself into mental concepts of “here” and “there”, ‘positive’ and ‘negative’, superiority’ and ‘inferiority’ –

but instead to see things for what they are and re-align myself to the value of life, thus standing-up within myself in self-trust, self-worth and self-acceptance as life.

I see, realize and understand that I am able to see things for what they are, from the starting-point of equality and oneness;

and that from this starting-point I am able to self-honestly investigate and understand HOW I have created/accepted the value-judgments of ‘positive’ and ‘negative’ which I then allowed to DEFINE the mental and emotional experience of myself – so that I may STOP this acceptance and allowance and restore the value of LIFE within myself as oneness and equality.

I commit myself to STOP accepting and allowing ENERGY as POLARITY as the MIND to direct and define Me and the experience of Me, and to instead BE, LIVE and MOVE as the directive-principle of ME –taking self-responsibility as the authority/the author of myself and my existence within and as self-equality and oneness.

 

I see, realize and understand the simplicity of the SOLUTION that is to be LIVED if we are to create ourselves and our world as LIFE:

it is to acknowledge that the VALUE of LIFE is LIFE, which is the equation of Oneness and Equality –

because LIFE exists EQUALLY within and as all living beings as ONE existence: we share the same air, water, ground, and it is thus common sense that we in essence share one common interest: LIFE itself, as ourselves and each-other and this planet that sustains us.

 

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that we require to acknowledge, honor and practically live the value of LIFE as ourselves – GIVE it to ourselves, and GIVE it to each-other equally.

I commit myself to showing how an equal money system is a first practical step towards this direction.

I commit myself to showing how we have within the accepted world system replaced the actual value of LIFE with fake “values” of consciousness based on concepts, ideas and perceptions of ‘superiority’/‘inferiority’, ‘positive’/‘negative’, ‘more than’/ ‘less than’ –

and have thus come to exist in constant comparison and competition against each-other, instead of existing HERE TOGETHER in mutual respect, support and dignity as LIFE.

I commit myself to exposing the current consumerism system of Capital/Money and how it perpetuates even further this consciousness of comparison, competition, survival of the fittest; and in NO WAY supports the individual human being in self-realizing Life as the actual, true value Here.

I commit myself to showing how all systems of our world promote the concept of “getting there”, be it within education, the money-system, religion, science, through the media and the sexualization of society : everything exists as a promise for ‘more’, without offering the tools with which to learn how to deal with what is ALREADY HERE as ourselves, society, the human psyche, relationships, energetic experiences, our thought processes etc.

I commit myself to showing how the Equal Money System as proposed by us Destonians is the only proposal that places the value of Life as starting-point for all practical considerations, aiming at bringing forth an existence where we stop `surviving´ through abuse and exploitation and finally start LIVING in actual support, freedom and dignity, that will allow for actual EVOLUTION in all possible fields of the human existence.

I commit myself to showing how the Desteni I Process is the only curriculum that shows in detail how the mind consciousness operates and how we have come to exist as we do currently on this earth, creating an inner and outer hell for ourselves and each-other while we are trapped in fear and accepted inferiority –

and that the TOOLS are HERE with which any willing individual is able to start deconstructing, understanding, and transcending any accepted fears, beliefs, desires and the equations that define and determine one’s experience, to stop the self-separation, stop the abdication of responsibility and directive-authority, and get to self-honesty about how we create ourselves and consequently our world.

 

 

ART by Rozelle De Lange

Read up on the MIND and CREATION:
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://desteni.org/articles
 

For support and participation visit:
http://forum.desteni.org
http://equalmoney.org/forum/
http://desteniIprocess.com

Visit my Blog sites:
http://breath-expression.blogspot.com
http://equal-money-revolution.blogspot.com
http://earthglobalreview.wordpress.com

@ eqafe for FREE:
* Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* How I was able to Hear the Desteni Message <<< PDF Download - Blog Compilation
* What the FAQ in an Equal Money System – Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* Hell Spoof <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality
* What makes me Starve in a World of Plenty <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality

Day 132: Want Home – “Here” & “There” | How Definitions Define Self

ART by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

 

 

 

This is continuing from

Day 128: Standing Up from Falling in Love

Day 129: Alternate Reality Creation in Backchat - The Enemy Within

Day 130: Want Home - "Here" and "There"
Day 131: Want Home - "Here" and "There" | Self Realization Commitments

 

 

So, I’m continuing having a look into the definition of “Here” and “There” and how within that I separated myself from Here, separated me from What is Here as Me because I did not want to face me, experience me, be here with me –

and I did not back then have the tools and the realizations with which to assist and support myself as I do today.

So I was simply running – running away from the experience of Me.

 

 

From my blog post Day 130:

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be aligned to a definition of "there" which I imagined and created in my mind and charged it over time with feelings of 'positive', 'peace', 'stop running, 'having arrived', 'home', 'fulfilment'.

So here I will look into how I defined “There” – which is a word-definition/idea I realized exists within me since I looked into the two words HOME and WANT (for reference and further context read my blog post from Day 130).

So I realized that I created “there” as a projection of myself, defined as: 'peace', 'stop running, 'having arrived', 'home', 'fulfilment';

thus charged as a ‘positive’ feeling.

What I hadn’t obviously considered is that through the acceptance of this projection as ‘valid’ and ‘positive’ = I was accepting Me Here as ‘invalid’ and ‘negative’.

And the more I would wish for and charge the ‘positive’ projection, the more ‘negative’ my experience of Me Here would become – and the less able I would become in directing Me Here, directing my Here into effective Living in self-support, self-expression, self-acceptance.

So what did I do: I took “value” and I placed it “there”. Within this, I deprived Me Here of any value, per implication thus defining Me Here as ‘powerless’ and ‘unworthy’.

An interesting point to look at and see/realize, is that:

How do we get “there”? We get “there” through all the steps we take in every “here”-moment with every breath. So it is the Here that determines the “there” – it is the present that determines the future. It is who I am in every moment that accumulates, forms and determines who I am becoming, who I will be.

Within however placing all value, all power, all attention “there” – I had implicitly accepted/defined myself Here as ‘worthless’ and ‘powerless’ - therefore I was within that in fact creating the “there” equally as ‘worthless’ and ‘powerless’ as my accepted definition of “here”, in spite of wishing for and dreaming of the 'positive' – 'peace', 'stop running, 'having arrived', 'home', 'fulfilment'.

Because how can I get all that – if I am not giving it to myself within and as who I am and how I live?!

 

What is also important to see and realize here is how the trap of polarity operates:

Because within the definitions I had formed/accepted (see my previous blog posts for details), I had defined the positive through the negative, the negative being my experience of myself “here”, the positive being my wishful-thinking projected out “there”.

Within this, positive and negative, “here” and “there”, are polarity constructs that exist together as ONE – they cannot exist alone, they need each-other, the ‘positive’ and the ‘negative’ are defined by and through each-other.

That is the trap of polarity. And that is how we trap ourselves within ENEGRY –

ENERGY being our interpretation of reality into mental values of ‘positive’/ ‘more than’/ ‘superior’ and ‘negative’/ ‘less than’/ ‘inferior’, whereby from this then emerge the various levels of ‘feelings’ (positive) and ‘emotions’ (negative), based on the equations and definitions we form /accept /allow.

We then in turn additionally CHARGE these definitions (words, thoughts, ideas, pictures, imaginations) through further thinking about them, which perpetuates our emotional attachment to the words, thoughts, ideas, pictures, imaginations – and so there we have it:

the vicious cycles of ENEGRY through thoughts, backchat, feelings, emotions, that seem to never end – because we continue participating in it in the BELIEF that we are ‘right’ to see things the way we do and in the FAITH that maybe someday we’ll get “there” and our dreams and desires will finally be ‘fulfilled’.

Wow.

 

So what is the way out?

How do we set ourselves from the trap of polarity?

How do we set ourselves free from the mental concepts we subject ourselves to which generate the emotional experience we have of ourselves and our reality?

 

The answer is simplistic:

it is about accepting ourselves as the VALUE of LIFE, which is Oneness, and within that also Equality.

We have however replaced the value of LIFE which is equally within all living beings as ONE Life with fake values of consciousness based on concepts, ideas and perceptions of ‘superiority’/‘inferiority’, ‘positive’/‘negative’, ‘more than’/ ‘less than’ and have come to exist in constant comparison and competition towards each-other, instead of existing in mutual respect, support and communication as LIFE.

 

The current consumerism system of Capital/Money obviously perpetuates even further this consciousness of comparison, competition, survival of the fittest; and in no way supports the individual human being in self-realizing Life as the actual, true value Here.

Furthermore, all systems of our world promote the concept of “getting there”, be it education, the money-system, religion, science, the media and the sexualization of society – everything exists as a promise for ‘more’, without offering the tools with which to learn how to deal with what is already here as ourselves, society, the human psyche, relationships, energetic experiences, our thought processes etc.

The Equal Money System as proposed by us Destonians is the only proposal that places the value of Life as starting-point for all practical considerations, aiming at bringing forth an existence where we stop surviving through abuse and exploitation and start LIVING in actual support, freedom and dignity, that will allow for actual evolution in all possible fields of our existence.

The Desteni I Process is the only curriculum that shows in detail how the mind consciousness operates and how we have come to exist as we do currently on this earth, creating an inner and outer hell for ourselves and each-other while we are trapped in fear and accepted inferiority –

and within this understanding the willing individual is able to start deconstructing any accepted fears, beliefs, desires and the equations that define and determine one’s experience, and get to self-honesty about how we create ourselves and consequently our world.

 

In my next blog post tomorrow I will continue with self-forgiveness and self commitment statements on the points that opened up today, and will in the blog posts to come continue with the next points that opened up since I started looking into the words Home and Want.

 

 

 

Read up on the MIND and CREATION:
http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://desteni.org/articles

For support and participation visit:
http://forum.desteni.org
http://equalmoney.org/forum/
http://desteniIprocess.com

Visit my Blog sites:
http://breath-expression.blogspot.com
http://equal-money-revolution.blogspot.com
http://earthglobalreview.wordpress.com

@ eqafe for FREE:
* Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* How I was able to Hear the Desteni Message <<< PDF Download - Blog Compilation
* What the FAQ in an Equal Money System – Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* Hell Spoof <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality
* What makes me Starve in a World of Plenty <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality

Day 131: Want Home - “Here” & “There” | Self Realization Commitments

ART by Anna Brix Thomsen

This is continuing from:

Day 128: Standing Up from Falling in Love

Day 129: Alternate Reality Creation in Backchat - The Enemy Within

Day 130: Want Home - "Here" and "There"

 

So, I in my previous blog post had written out the points that opened up for me to look into, and started with the last word:

-   Restlessness / ‘On the Run’

-   ‘Find Peace’ / Home

-   Fear - Wrong – Right

-   "There"

 

Within this blog post I continue with self realization commitments on the same point.

 

 

 

I commit myself to practically aligning myself Here, being Here in every breath in the realization that it is through the accumulation of ‘who I am’ in every breath that I develop and establish myself and my reality –

instead of “there” which is a projection of the mind based on pre-programmed ideas that create desires, hopes, and fears and thus keep me trapped within a limited option without actual self-direction, due to my acceptance and allowance of the energetic polarity patterns of fear and desire/hope as ‘valid’, when they are not: they are simply the result of my conditioned consciousness, my pre-programming, and indicate not who I really am as life but merely the nature of the personalities and protection-/defence-mechanisms I exist through as Ego/consciousness.  

 

I commit myself to stopping myself from existing in a state of mind where I am as if constantly projected "there", or as if this "there" constantly exists, and I am somehow 'pulled toward it'; When and as I notice that I am accepting and allowing myself to abdicate my directive-principle and my presence as breath to projections of the mind, where I would go into hoping or wishing or wanting/needing/desiring:

I stop, I breathe, and I bring myself back Here, to direct myself in the context of the actuality of my reality, making sure that I stand within a point of self-responsibility = no longer separating and projecting parts of me into some future or onto another being waiting/expecting that to ‘save me’. Rather, I ‘save myself’ in every moment – ‘save’ myself from following the projections of the mind, by remaining Here within and as breath in every moment, thus remaining in self-clarity and self-direction to walk life in Real-Time equal and one and be the directive principle of me here.

 

 

I commit myself to living the realization that whenever I find myself going into a want, need and desire for "there", I within this in fact diminish Me Here.

Therefore the moment I see myself going into a want, need and desire for "there": I stop, I breathe, and I bring myself back Here, to the actuality of my reality in the moment, as I am Here, as I breathe here in every moment.

 

I commit myself to living the realization that while I think, feel and believe that I miss something “there” – I am in fact missing Here.

Therefore, I train myself to remaining Here, through breathing and self-awareness as life, as breathing, not as a mind that is trapped within past conditioning and future projections.

 

I commit myself to live the realization that Life is Here. Therefore, ‘fear of missing out’ or fear of ‘not living’ is in fact an indication that one does not live, but exists trapped in the projections of one’s own accepted definitions of ‘living’;

and while one imagine ‘living’ or ‘try to live’, one does not Live in fact.

 

I commit myself to living the realization that Life/Living is the actuality of reality in every moment, in full awareness of all that is here as life.

 

I commit myself to stopping the mental polarity and emotional trap of “here” and “there” and setting myself free from past conditioning and future projections –

so that I may stand in full self-responsibility Here, thus in full self-power Here, in oneness and equality as myself, as life, as breathing self-awareness in every moment.

 

I commit myself to seeing others as me Here – therefore seeing who another is in actuality, instead of seeing the projections of my own mind.

 

I commit myself to always immediately take a judgment, an opinion, or any backchat that comes up in the mind toward another at any given moment: and bring the point back to myself, forgive the projection, and take responsibility for the point by looking at how that judgment / opinion / backchat in fact relates to ‘who I am’ / ‘who’ I allow myself to be –

in the realization that I am in essence always facing myself, and any reaction I have indicates points within myself that I have not yet looked at effectively and directed to self equality and oneness, in self-honesty and self-responsibility.

 

Therefore I commit myself to ‘reminding’ myself that I am walking my process for ME, for self; I am walking life facing ME – thus I am able to amalgamate with any point I face in every moment, equal and one, seeing it for what it is, forgiving it, correcting myself as it, changing ME and re-aligning ME, and eventually within this process, I become a living example of change, of directive-principle, of the stopping of separation and walking in self-responsibility.

 

 

I realize that Life is Here.

I realize that I am Here.

I commit myself to live these realizations as best for Life.

 

I accept What is Here.

I accept Here.

I accept Me Here.

I accept that I am Here.

I realize within this that my responsibility is Here, and that is equal to absolute self-responsibility.

I realize that only through accepting What is Here and embracing it as Me – can I change it; because then I am changing Me.

 

TO BE CONTINUED!

 

 

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Day 130: Want Home - "Here" and "There"

ART by Kelly Posey

I have some pictures of me at young age, 2 or 3 years old, where I have this 'lost' expression on my face - like I don't know where I am, why I am, what I am supposed to be doing.
From a very young age I remember this feeling of 'not being home', and very quickly I developed this habit of visiting friends' homes because it somehow felt better to be 'there'.

The operative word being 'THERE' - and I'll get to that in a moment.

I was moved a lot as a kid, having grandparents in two different countries, plus my parents travelled a lot between the two countries when I was very young and I was left with the grandparents in the one place or the other. I changed several schools due to these circumstances as well. It wasn't until recently though that I started looking into the history of parents and grandparents and the circumstances they were exposed to, like war, struggle, being refugees, moving places. I myself was in my mother's belly during a war and born shortly after the family moved to another place.
In the beginning of my Journey to Life writings I had a look at the point of being a refugee and carrying with me the emotion of this word/experience.

When I finished school I immediately went to another country to study, where I ended up staying for the other half of my life, then went back to my 'homeland' for a short period of time before I travelled to South Africa to stay at the Desteni farm for three years, then again back to 'homeland' where I wanted to see whether and how I can perhaps find 'peace', yet a year later I again moved to another country to take on a job. And even though I had already, theoretically,  realized that home is Here, and I am Here, therefore I am at Home - this point of self equality and oneness, where one is 'at peace', silent, not searching, not running, not wanting - simply Here -
there was still this feeling/emotion/state of mind that somehow was like 'driving' me from the inside, a creepy underlying feeling, perhaps best described as fear, or uncertainty, or irritation, or restlessness.

Restlessness.
Another point to which to come back to and investigate.

Fear of doing 'the wrong thing', or being 'at the wrong place' 'in the wrong time'. WTF!

Recently I came face to face with this 'feeling' which had become a sort of emotional obsession as it manifested within my relationship.
Where I had projected my WANT for a HOME onto my relationship - instead of living the realization that I am Here therefore I am Home.

Putting it all together, it seems I've been on the run my whole life. The word that comes up here is Restlessness.

Points to investigate through self-forgiveness and re-define:

Restlessness / On the Run
Find Peace / Home
Fear - Wrong - Right
"There"


I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to be aligned to a definition of "there" which I imagined and created in my mind and charged it over time with feelings of 'positive', 'peace', 'stop running, 'having arrived', 'home', 'fulfilment'.

(Wow fascinating crescendo there! - amazing what we make out of words through charging them with energetic values! - that is a point for another blog post, looking into the Living Word, what we've made of it/ourselves, and what it/we could be...)

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exist in a state of mind where I am as if constantly projected "there", or as if this "there" constantly exists, and I am somehow 'pulled toward it'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to unconsciously, underlyingly, exist within a want, need and desire for "there", within this diminishing myself Here, and therefore equally missing Here.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that while I constantly think, believe and feel that I am missing "there" and thus "I gotta get there" - I am in Fact missing Here, missing myself Here, existing in essence no-where really, but kinda floating in the air, feet searching for ground ...all the while I am Here.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I also created a 'fear of missing out' which is basically a fear of 'not living' - and through accepting and allowing this fear to exist within me: I basically manifested it, manifested ME as in fact not living, because I am not Here, I am somehow always "trying to live", always "getting there" and "missing" "there" - when in the actuality of Reality I am missing Me Here.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to manifest myself between the 'poles' of "there" and "here" - in all possible aspects of my life: relationship/partnership, job, friendships, family.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to see my partner as "there" and to 'miss him' here.
I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to see my partner as 'missing here' when in Fact it is I that was missing here - and I was wishing for my partner to bring the "there" to me here. WTF!

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to be Here.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to accept Here.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to accept Me Here.


TO BE CONTINUED!




Read up on the MIND and CREATION:
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http://desteni.org/articles

For support and participation visit:
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http://equalmoney.org/forum/
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http://earthglobalreview.wordpress.com

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* Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* How I was able to Hear the Desteni Message <<< PDF Download - Blog Compilation
* What the FAQ in an Equal Money System – Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* Hell Spoof <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality
* What makes me Starve in a World of Plenty <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality