Day 129: Alternate Reality Creation in Backchat - The Enemy Within

ART by Marlen Vargas Del Razo

Within the context of investigating my creation and the consequences thereof, in other words within the process of facing myself and taking responsibility for who I am and what I create, I am realizing the extensive nature of ‘backchat’ and the consequences of following thoughts, internal conversations and energetic experiences in the mind (=backchat) and how the acceptance of such forms multiple personalities which, if not stopped/transformed through self-honesty and self-responsibility, may take over a being completely and lead to decisions or actions one will end up regretting.

What is interesting to notice is that thoughts are always bipolar in nature (positive and negative), creating thus bipolar experiences of positive or negative energy, and within that all: the ‘one’ that is forming, accepting and following the backchat is always attempting to ‘WIN’ based on a one-dimensional point of view (EGO) which one then tries to ‘validate’ at all cost.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be self-righteous about my thoughts, in spite of the fact that the moment before a thought comes up, I did not make a decision to ‘think’, yet the thought comes up and I follow the thought and give it attention, believing what it is telling me, forming from there all kinds of assumptions and conclusions, creating an entire alternate reality that has nothing to do with the actuality of reality that takes place in physical space-time;

within this basically create my own delusion which I then defend as if it were real, blind to the consequences of such diversion through my own acceptance and allowance.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to follow the mind through accepting ‘backchat’ to take place and allowing myself to believe and follow the backchat as if my mind is some kind of ‘god’ that is all-knowing –

instead of realize that within blindly following the mind I am in fact abdicating my responsibility, because I am simply following, not even questioning the consequences that I’d be actually able to see if I would allow myself to do the 1+1 mathematical equation of what it is I am accepting and allowing.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that any form of projected anger, blame, pity, discontent etc. that comes up in the mind in form of thoughts that involve another, where another is apparently to blame for: indicate absolute self-separation and the abdication of self-responsibility; furthermore they indicate a certain want / need / desire which one attempts to fulfil through another, instead of taking self-responsibility for who one is and how one experience oneself and why.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to go into a state of ‘superiority’ within the mind through ‘backchat’, thinking and believing I understand another or have a clue what another is thinking – all the while I was simply projecting my own fears and insecurities unto another, to not have to face myself and take absolute self-responsibility.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed backchat to exist within me as a ‘secret mind’ – instead of walking step by step in physical space-time and dealing DIRECTLY with what is here in my space-time reality at any given moment.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create frictions and conflict – not realizing that this friction and conflict only served the fuelling of my backchat, because the more friction and conflict, the more the backchat seems ‘right’.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to follow the backchat that comes up automatically in the mind – which I realize I have created over a lifetime in specific situations – instead of directly and immediately investigating what thoughts come up, what are they trying to tell me, who would I be/define myself as if I believed the thoughts, what personalities are activate, what am I as the mind trying to gain out of it all, what is the game that is played, what am I supposed to ‘win’, etc. –

so that I may place myself in a position of directing myself in self-honesty and practical common sense, instead of accepting and allowing the conditioned mind to direct me, the mind that is based in fear.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist as a slave to fear and thus a slave to the conditioned mind, thinking and believing the mind can be trusted –

instead of realizing that the mind consciousness is conditioned as EGO and can therefore not be trusted with life, cannot be trusted to make decisions in a way that supports all life equally, cannot be trusted to regard the value of life as oneness and equality.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to abdicate my directive principle to consciousness as backchat as Ego in the ‘secret mind’ – and I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to identify with and accept the backchat as ‘me’, as ‘normal’, as ‘logical’; instead of remaining Here as Breath and taking apart what the mind is showing me so that I may take responsibility for what is going within me and make an informed decision in self-responsibility about what I will accept and allow and what I will not accept or allow within me as me.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that all violence, all conflict, all war in the world is the result of backchat in the ‘secret mind’ – a direct result of our separation from life as oneness and inequality and into a consciousness of polarity where there are ‘winners’ and ‘losers’, yet fascinatingly enough everyone always tries to ‘win’; therefore war and conflict is the inevitable manifested consequence of our existence and the actual friction that fuels the world system and keeps the world running.

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to be a cause for war in the world, a cause for conflict of interest, through existing within self-interest through and as the conditioned mind: based in fear (inferiority) yet always trying to ‘win’ (superiority), while the solution to our plight as humanity is simple: the self-realization of life as oneness and equality, starting with equality and oneness within and as self, wherein self stand-up within self to take responsibility for all parts of self as equal and one, to stop the separation within self and stand as accountable individual that is truly ONE and equal within itself in all possible, thus standing in integrity and taking full responsibility for what one create through/as the directive principle of one’s WILL.

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that no WILL is free unless it stands in integrity as LIFE;

and that currently in the world free will implies the freedom to abuse and exploit others in SELF-INTEREST, which is a direct reflection of the backchat human beings allow within the ‘secret mind’;

while FREE WILL would in fact imply the WILLingness to take responsibility for self and that exists as self and direct it in the INTEREST of LIFE.

 

I commit myself to walking my process of identifying, forgiving and correcting any and all backchat that I have created throughout my life based on my conditioned consciousness – to take responsibility for everything that exists within me as me and make sure that who I am within and without is always in the interest of life.

 

I commit myself to stopping myself from blindly following backchat whenever it comes up, and to in the moment backchat is activated: stop and breathe, and bring myself back here in the realization that I am able to breathe any energetic experience through my body and release it back to substance, into the earth, to earth myself Here making sure I stand my ground as a being that is committed to Life.

 

I commit myself to, when and as backchat comes up, stop myself from following the mind and allowing it to direct me, my experience and my decisions; and to instead breathe here and slow down to make sure I take self-responsibility and remain the directive principle of me in self equality and oneness.

 

I commit myself to walking the tools of the Desteni I Process, and sharing my realizations and process of self-support, as I see that we require support and assistance to identify, understand and work with the accepted backchat and all forms of the ‘secret mind’, to take self-responsibility and realize ourselves as accountable human beings that are no longer simply accepting ‘human nature’ as organic robots driven by fear in accepted inferiority, and not trying to cover that up through delusions of ‘superiority’ either –

but assisting and supporting ourselves to get to that point of self equality and oneness where one stand within and as integrity and has thus the will and the power to direct all of self as one and equal; stopping the separation of self, stopping the abdication of self and self’s creation, and living the realization that responsibility is power and that true power is within and as equality and oneness as life.

 

 

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