383. Redefining ME | What’s Love & Happiness Worth?

...So – when I looked at this ‘feeling’ which became a belief (“I am not loved”) that I was holding onto for most of my teenage years and young adulthood, I realized that I had made some ‘interesting’ conclusions from that one single belief, conclusions that would affect my entire life and the way I feel about myself. For example:
I am not loved therefore I am not worthy of love.
I am not loved therefore I am unworthy.
I am not loved therefore I cannot love myself.
I am not loved therefore I am not allowed to love myself.
I am not loved therefore I am not happy.
I am not loved therefore I am not allowed to be happy.
I cannot be happy unless someone/another loves me.

From:

Day 381. Redefining ME | Debunking Self Religion - I Am what I beLIEve? (part2)

In the context of:
Day 380 | Redefining ME | Debunking Self Religion - I Am what I beLIEve? 
Day 378 | Redefining ME | What is Perfection? 'Success' vs. 'Failure'?
Day 376 | Redefining ME | From Alone to AllOne
Day 375 | Redefining ME | Self Commitment - to LIVE
Day 374 | Redefining ME | Self Religion continued: Living vs. Doing
Day 373 | Redefining ME | Self Religion continued: Feeling Good vs. Feeling Bad
Day 371 | Redefining ME – Debunking Self Religion
Day 363 | Love in My Life
 
Day 362 | Are we just Earthlings ???
Day 361 | An Earthling’s Journey to Life
Day 360 | My Life is Me - Equal Life Foundation
Day 359 | My Life is Me
Day 358 | Who is the Self within Self-Interest
Day 357 | Is Consciousness All I Can Be?
Day 356 | Self Commitment - Stopping the Negativity in My Life
Day 355 | Misfit > Transfit > Earthling > LIFE : A New Destiny is Possible
Day 354 | The Nastiness of the Misfit
Day 352 | My Life Journey from Misfit to Earthling
Day 351 | “My Life” - The Ignorance of the Misfit

Day 350 | Beliefs & Self-Definitions in relation to „My Life“
Day 349 | Self Commitment - Responsibility for „My Life“ & Responsibility for Life as a Whole
Day 348 | Self Commitment - "My Life"
Day 347 | Self Commitment & Desteni I Process




“I am not loved therefore I am not worthy of love.”

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I am not loved, based on experiences and judgments in my childhood wherein I compared myself to other children, other families and what I saw on TV.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to hold within myself a definition of me as “I am not loved” and to place my belief and my faith in that/such definition, concluding that I must not be worthy of love, otherwise I would be loved.

Within this I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to have created ideas and imaginations and pictures in my mind about what it means to be loved, based on images and idea(l)s propagated on TV and/or based on what I observed with other children and other families wherein I have judged what I saw as better/more than what I have/experience, without considering that I am not seeing the whole picture of a child/family but only what is being presented to the world as an image of a happy loving family.



“I am not loved therefore I am unworthy.”

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that if/when I am not loved based on what I have defined as “being loved” according to how “love” is being presented through media and the systems of this world including parenting, education/school etc. – then I must be unworthy.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed a definition of myself as “unworthy” based on a feeling/emotion without ever questioning where such feeling/emotion came from.

I forgive myself that I hadn´t allowed myself to investigate the thoughts/judgments/beliefs that led to the creation of such feeling/emotion.

I forgive myself that I hadn´t allowed myself to consider that holding such belief within myself about myself is equal to holding a judgment within myself about myself.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as unworthy, no realizing that such judgment comes from comparison and comparison is always based on the norms and ideas that the system indoctrinates which have nothing to do with the value of life as such.

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to value myself as life and to accept self-worth as me here, as I am here breathing in every moment, therefore if I do not value myself as life how can I be worthy of life?

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to –from this/such self-definition as unworthy- make a quest out of my life for value/worth wherein I´d seek for others o value me and show me that I am worthy, while I myself was not valuing myself or accepting self-worth within and as myself unconditionally.



“I am not loved therefore I cannot love myself.”

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within accepting the idea/belief that I am not loved and accepting the judgment within that, thinking that I am unworthy, I have accepted a self-definition as “unworthy” which did not allow me to love myself.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to love myself as life unconditionally, but have instead searched for love and though/believed that I must find love `out there´ as someone/something that will make me feel like I am loved and thus worthy – while I myself was not giving myself the value of life and was not accepting self-worth within and as myself.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to create within my mind the belief that I cannot love myself because I am unworthy or because I am not loved – and to within that seek for value/worth and seek to be loved outside of myself, in separation from myself.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by holding the belief that “I cannot love myself” I am the one that is not allowing myself to love myself and to live self-worth within and as who I am.

I forgive myself that I hadn´t allowed myself to question the fuzzy logic of my mind consciousness creating such conclusions as “I am not loved therefore I cannot love myself”, and that I hadn´t allowed myself to question the starting-point of such conclusion-belief – because if I had investigated and questioned such belief and the starting-point thereof: I would´ve seen that the starting-point is based in accepted `inferiority´ (=I am not loved therefore I am not worthy of love), and would thus have seen that my hopes/desires to `be worthy´ and `be loved´ have been projections of `superiority´ wherein I thought and believed that if I find someone/something to `love me´ and `make me worthy´ then I can compensate for/remove the `inferiority´ I experienced, without realizing that both polarities consist of and exist as the same ONE polarity-construct, the same trap, within which I am making myself and my worth dependent on external factors and allowing external factors to define me, who I am, and how I experience myself – instead of me taking self-responsibility for who I am and valuing myself as life, in self-worth, unconditionally.



“I am not loved therefore I am not allowed to love myself.”

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself that I need permission to love myself.
I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to give myself that permission.
I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to make myself subject to others/the system/the world/the mind, instead of taking SELF-responsibility and directive authority as to who I am and how I exist, and whether I am worthy of life or not.


“I am not loved therefore I am not happy.”
“I am not loved therefore I am not allowed to be happy.”

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when/if I am not loved then I cannot be happy or am not allowed to be happy.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I was within that creating the condition for myself that: in order for me to be happy, someone (other than me) must love me.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I was within that creating the condition for myself that: in order for me to be happy, someone (other than me) must give me permission to be happy by making me believe that I am worthy of being happy.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to define happiness as `being loved´ and to thus also form the definition of `unhappiness´ as `not being loved´ - without questioning the implications and consequences of such ideas/beliefs/definitions.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to define happiness/being happy in practical terms in a way that I can live happiness within and as who I am without being dependent on external factors.
I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to live happiness as me.
I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to be happy, based on the accepted idea/belief that “I am not worthy”.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to consider that I am able to `make myself happy´ by living in self-awareness with every breath in every moment in such a way that I value myself as life and everyone else in my world equally = participating in my reality in a way that supports life (both within myself and equally within everyone else in my world) and helps restore the value of life that we have so foolishly abdicated to systems of polarity and fake values



“I cannot be happy unless someone/another loves me.”

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to separate the word `love´ from myself.
I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to separate the word `happiness´ from myself.
I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to separate the word `worth´ from myself.

I forgive myself that I´ve accepted and allowed myself to project he words `love´ and `happiness´ and `worth´ out there for me to reach/seek/find – not realizing that by projecting these words out there I am separating them from me here and at the same time I am implying and accepting that Me Here is defined within lack of `love´, `happiness´, `worth´.

I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to consider that by making my `love´, my `happiness´, my `worth´ subject to another/someone/something – I am making Me subject to and thus dependent on another/someone/something.

Within this I forgive myself that I haven´t allowed myself to take self-responsibility to live `love´, `happiness´, `worth´ AS myself, AS who I am, and to Give `love´, `happiness´, `worth´ to myself by Living `love´, `happiness´, `worth´ For Me, within and as who I am with every breath in every moment – instead of waiting/hoping/expecting `love´, `happiness´, `worth´ to be given to me by another/someone/something.




I commit myself to redefining `love´, `happiness´, `worth´ in practical terms equal to Life/living so that I am able to live these words as who I am, within this assisting and supporting myself to (re)establish my value as LIFE.

I commit myself to loving myself practically, within self-support and self-respect.

I commit myself to finding practical ways to make myself happy – and even though I realize that happiness cannot be something permanent until we change the world system in a way that ensures happiness for all life; I also realize that personal happiness can be achieved through self-honest self-appreciation within Living every moment to the best of my ability, not accepting anything less than what is equal to life and thus best for life/all/me.

I commit myself to give myself the permission to live, express and expand, within this assisting and supporting myself to move past my accepted limitations and definitions of polarity/mind – as I realize that within giving myself the permission to live, express and expand: I am assisting and supporting myself and others in my world to live to the full potential each one has/is as life.

I commit myself to valuing myself as life and finding practical ways to live and express self-worth as the value of life that I am, as I realize that if we do not even value ourselves as life for-real we will never be able to manifest a world where life is valued for-real.

ART by Matti Freeman

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375. Redefining ME | Self Commitment - to LIVE

Continuing from
Day 374. Redefining ME | Self Religion continued: Living vs. Doing
Day 373 | Redefining ME | Self Religion continued: Feeling Good vs. Feeling Bad
Day 371 | Redefining ME – Debunking Self Religion

Day 363 | Love in My Life
Day 362 | Are we just Earthlings ???
Day 361 | An Earthling’s Journey to Life
Day 360 | My Life is Me - Equal Life Foundation
Day 359 | My Life is Me
Day 358 | Who is the Self within Self-Interest
Day 357 | Is Consciousness All I Can Be?
Day 356 | Self Commitment - Stopping the Negativity in My Life
Day 355 | Misfit > Transfit > Earthling > LIFE : A New Destiny is Possible
Day 354 | The Nastiness of the Misfit
Day 352 | My Life Journey from Misfit to Earthling
Day 351 | “My Life” - The Ignorance of the Misfit

Day 350 | Beliefs & Self-Definitions in relation to „My Life“
Day 349 | Self Commitment - Responsibility for „My Life“ & Responsibility for Life as a Whole
Day 348 | Self Commitment - "My Life"
Day 347 | Self Commitment & Desteni I Process





…I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to define living as doing – and within that I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear not living when I am not doing something.
…I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a definition of Living as ‘doing’, instead of realizing it is not about what I do, but rather it is about who I am within what I do.
…I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by defining Living as ‘doing’, I have been limiting myself and my ability to live and express.


Therefore I commit myself to assist and support myself in letting go of this definition of living, and to instead redefining LIVING to be equal to the value of life.

So – how do I do that?

Obviously one point to consider within redefining words is to ´purify´ the words from polarity charges.

For instance, within the definition of Living as ´doing´, there exists the definition that doing is living and thus good while not-doing is not living and thus bad.

Furthermore, what can be seen within the definition of Living as ´doing´ is how the definition of Living is thereby being limited to only ´doing´.


So –
Redefining the word Living/to Live in the context of oneness and equality / LIFE / best for all:

LIVING / to LIVE = to be Here in Self Awareness with every breath in every moment and Live = Move Self to Express / Direct = Decide / Determine ´Who I am´ in this Moment = take a Stand of what I will accept and allow and what I will not accept and allow.

Thus, Living / to Live is to Move Self in awareness of all that is here within/as a particular moment (any given moment for that matter), rather than being Moved by automatic/systematic triggers and reactions.


This is a practical and applicable definition of the words Living / to Live that does not limit the expression of self and that places self as the directive principle / the starting-point of the words Living / to Live.




…I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to place more value in doing/what I do and to be less aware of who I am within what I do.
…Within this I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself in terms of the “value” definition indoctrinated by the system, and to disregard the value of life within and as myself.
…I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to disable myself from living effectively by forming/ adopting/ accepting a definition of what it means ‘to live’ in my mind that does not support me to in fact live and express and walk my life in self-worth as life.


Therefore I commit myself to assist and support myself in being aware of Who I am within what I do – thus being aware of my starting-point as me – 

thus within/as such self awareness giving myself the ability and the authority to align/correct my starting-point if7when I see that my starting-point point is not supporting me as life /not supporting life.

For instance, if I am doing something out of obligation, or to be liked – then such starting-point is no self-honest, is not supporting me as life nor anyone else as life;

therefore in such a case I am in self awareness able to realign/correct my starting-point to be unconditional expression and support, instead of eg. seeking approval.




…I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that when I’m not ‘doing’, when I am not ‘busy’ with something, then I am not living.
Within this I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to be here for myself, to for instance support myself in resting, doing nothing, simply being here with me,
…I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to give myself the permission to live ME, because I am here, thus I breathe, live and express; but only believed myself to be living when doing something/being busy.


Therefore I commit myself to – when and as I see/find myself ´being busy´ with ´doing´ - Stop and breathe and recall the realization that by indulging in ´doing´ and ´business´ I am in fact neglecting myself as life and only following my conditioned idea of ´living´;

thus within such moment I am able to stop and re-assess what it is am doing, what my starting-point is within it all, who I am with and towards myself as well as who I am with and towards another/my world, and make a decision/alignment within myself that will align my participation/application with/as self-honesty – in terms of how I have redefined the words Living/to Live to support myself as life.

When and as I see/find myself being restless or busy, I stop and breathe, and recall my redefinition of the words Living/to Live, and accordingly I assist and support myself in being here for me, or in resting, or simply taking a breath and re-aligning my starting-point in the context of my new definition of the words Living/to Live, within that assisting and supporting myself to LIVE my new definition as a matter of fact.

When and as I find myself thinking and believing that I am not living because/when I am not doing, or when and as I find myself fearing that I´m not living – I stop and I take a breath; I remind myself that this feeling/experience stems from my conditioned and accepted definition of the words Living/to Live as ´doing´ and that I have made the decision to let go of this/such definition and redefine how I will live the words Living/to Live so as to support myself as life.

Thus I give myself the permission to LIVE, as I realize that I AM HERE, therefore I breathe, therefore within breathing I am able to live and express in every moment unconditionally = not according to the conditioned responses of mind consciousness, but in actual self-expression as who I really am as life, free from preprogrammed ideas and definitions.





…I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand the factor of ‘achievement’/ ‘accomplishment’/ ‘attainment’ that is entailed within DOING – and the belief that within/through DOING one is enhancing one’s value or becomes more ‘valuable’/’worthy’ (here some further words to redefine);
…Within this I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I was denying myself my value as life, by implying that I have to ‘earn’ it with ‘doing’.
…Within this I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I was placing conditions upon myself as to when/whether I am ‘valuable’/’worthy’ based on what/how much I am doing; and to at the same time not be fully aware of who I am within whatever I do – the starting-point.


So here again it is clear: it is the starting-point that determines everything. Within whatever I do, I am the starting-point. So what is the starting-point/the motivation/the intent within whatever I do – THAT is what defines the actual value of whatever I do, because whatever I do will have a value equal to me, the starting-point.

So, that ME in every moment has a choice – the only actual choice:
To either be directed by/as the conditioned consciousness I have become that (as all consciousness) exists in separation/ego/fear/self-interest;
OR to be self-directive and to live who I really am as life, considering and expressing/living that which is best for me as life/as all.

I commit myself to assist and support myself in letting go of my conditioned ideas and definitions of ‘achievement’/ ‘accomplishment’/ ‘attainment’ that is entailed within DOING – and in letting go of the belief that within/through DOING I am enhancing my value or am becoming more ‘valuable’/’worthy’;
because I realize that such VALUE-JUDGMENTS merely trap me into polarity and thus into an endless struggle between ´inferiority´ and ´superiority´ - which is not even real: it´s all about mental concepts and the “values” of consciousness systems.

Thus I assist and support myself in letting go of and forgiving such fake/false values, stopping myself from being subject to and dependent on such fake/false values, and accepting my value as life by/through LIVING for-real; LIVING from the starting-point of LIFE as equality and oneness, and thus LIVING self-worth and self-respect –
consequently valuing and respecting all life equally.




…I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if my starting-point of/for living is for example seeking/trying/getting-there/wanting-more, then I am already within that implying that my starting-point is not equal to living/life, that my starting-point is inferior or has a negative/less value.
…I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed the word Living/to Live to exist as a mere projection of myself, within my mind.
…I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to live unconditionally.


I commit myself to assist and support myself practically in equalizing myself to/as LIFE in equality and oneness.
I commit myself to assist and support myself in letting go of and forgiving all concepts and manifestations of `inferiority´ and `superiority´ as I realize that such mental concepts do not support me or anyone else as life.

I commit myself to Live the words LIVING/to Live practically and for-real, to in fact make myself real as a physical living being that is here, present, aware, with every breath, in every moment, participating in my reality from the starting-point of LIFE as Best for All, as I realize that Best for All is equally always best for me and that such self-application will inevitably assist and support me in moving myself beyond the limitations of my conditioned consciousness, so that I may live who I really am to the utmost potential that I know can be and become as a LIVING BEING.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting myself to LIVE unconditionally.
I continue assisting ad supporting myself with self-honesty – in investigating and becoming aware of the conditions I had placed / adopted /accepted / allowed to define, determine and limit my ability to LIVE; forgiving them and letting go of them; and redefining the Words I live to be in fact Living Words that worthy of life, supporting ME as life and thus equally supporting LIFE as all, as one, as equals. 

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Equal Money Capitalism - Economist's Journey to Life
Politics and Political Action Re-Evaluated

Criminology, Cause & Effect, and How to establish a Society that's Pro-Life
Practicality for the Transcendence Process of Human Systems

Common Sense Considerations in the Light of Mankind's History

Psychology and How it can be used to Support Human Life

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http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

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Day 136: What Creates Who we Are/Become? The Words we Live | Man as the Living Word

ART By Terhas Tree White

This is continuing from 

Day 134: How Definitions Define Us |Man as the Living Word

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a world, a society, where we do not even agree on the meaning of the words we use – for instance the word LOVE.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to question Why, in spite of even growing up in the same cultural background with the same language education, we end up having individual definitions of words –

and to investigate the IMPLICATION of this fact from the perspectives of: what does this reveal about human nature and what is the  impact on and within human communication.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand how the evolution of human nature within one lifetime, from birth to death of a person: shows a process of self-alienation, self-seclusion, self-struggle – all of which is directly connected to and a result of the REACTIONS towards Others/the world that an individual copies, adopts and accumulates.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand how REACTIONS in fact indicate and represent: separation.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see that within an individual evolution process from birth to death, a human being gradually ‘evolves’ towards and through separating self from oneself and one’s world and into a mental bubble that becomes one’s consciousness and the filter through which one individually looks at the world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within an individual evolution process from birth to death, a human being gradually separates self from its absolute equality with everything that is here as one and from its authentic organic self expression and movement;

and into a patterned reaction mechanism which in time constitutes and constructs an automated consciousness system patch-worked through IMPRESSION of symbols / definitions / memories that are activated through particular triggers / entry-points / stimuli forming then particular reactions that are aligned with one’s accepted self-definitions.

What is fascinating within that is to notice that all self-definitions are formed based on ‘feedback’ from ‘others’ –

which implies that we are all enslaved by each-other and within accepting this, we allow the future to be enslaved by the past and formed from the past;

in essence we are thus merely recreating history = recreating the patterns of this world consciousness, both in the micro and macro perspective.

This also implies that the world/parents/society – the system – forms every next generation into a copy/mutation of itself called ‘evolution’ when it can’t be actual evolution, because the world isn’t yet even understanding itself – therefore our development process within and as consciousness is rather to be looked at as mutation, considering the atrocity that the accepted ‘human nature’ is capable of and allows for.

We are only beginning to understand ourselves, how we function, how we create, how we become, how we manifest this existence. This is being looked into, studied, discussed, and walked at Desteni which is still only a relatively small group of people that is waking up to the delusion of consciousness and the fact that we hide behind our own beliefs, ‘reason’ and justifications to not have to stand-up, face ourselves and take self-responsibility for life, in spite of the fact that we, if we look at our existence through common sense reasoning, can simplistically deduce common sense realizations that would explain how we function, how we create, how we become, how we manifest this existence.

Do we want to SEE? Do we want to FACE ourselves in the context of existence as a whole?

We don’t. We are programmed not to.

Because within this power-game we call ‘life’, the POWER of those would be threatened that found ways to abuse and manipulate in order to fulfil their OWN self-interest and hold power and control over the many, over the resources, over the movement of energy through a hierarchic world order of which they are at the TOP – would be threatened.

The Show Must Go On. Save the Queen. Save the System. The System Prevails.

Hmm... The system prevails at the cost of LIFE.

Why is this allowed? Why are we accepting our powerlessness as ‘status quo’? Why do we not challenge the system effectively? Because we ARE the system, and we’d have to challenge ourselves, we’d have to admit we’ve been screwed, we’ve been wrong, we’ve done wrong unto others and we’ve been existing in self-interest manipulating reality to our OWN interest in secret, out of FEAR of standing up, fear of change, fear of responsibility, fear of the destruction that is required before one can construct a new creation.

Now this ‘destruction’ I am talking about is not an act of violence, it is not an aggressive attitude towards or a fight against things. That would only be a fight against ourselves.

I should rather use the word DECONSTRUCTION – the process of de-conning ourselves, the process of de-constructing the fake faces and fake values and abusive systems that we hide behind and abdicate our responsibility to.

I am sure most of us can see the destructive nature of what we have become and call ‘human nature’, of what we have manifested as life on earth; the destructive nature of what we have accepted and allowed to become of ourselves and our existence; the destructive nature of this automated system within and without.

Now – in order to destroy, to deconstruct, to STOP this automated system, we must first understand it, which entails to understand ourselves in the context of human existence as a whole, how we function individually as systems and how our individual existence impacts the world just like our individual existence was impacted into beingness in the first place.

So it’s like phoenix rising from the ashes.  

Living the realization as CHANGE into BEINGNESS.

An actual transcendence is required, a transcendence of who we are, individually and collectively, a transformation of our living patterns into an existence that is truly dignified, free, realized.

And this opportunity, this ticket to life, SELF must give to SELF through an actual decision and through Living the decision; and the same opportunity, the same ticket to life must be given to ALL equally, as One, as Life, through a new system based on the value of life that will support all life equally in all possible ways (look into the equal money system proposal here) and will allow the re-education of the human towards MAN KNOW THYSELF, understanding ourselves and within that enabling ourselves to be/become the directive principle of ourselves in self-responsibility as life.

So the actual question is: What are you gonna do when you see, realize and understand what the fuck is going on – what we are creating, what we exist as, what we manifest through our acceptance and allowance, how we limit and enslave ourselves and each-other and how we hide behind fear while pursuing the desires the system imprinted onto us, which becomes our self-interest, seeking the easiest way to be ‘comfortably numb’, like a king on a throne ---

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as an automated mind consciousness patterned system acting out as various personalities preprogrammed according to IMPRESSED stimuli-response codes;

 and that I have accepted and allowed these IMPRESSIONS as ‘valid framework’ for me to exist within, as a DEFINITION.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to question my existence as a DEFINITION.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist as a mind only, never even questioning my apparent ‘dominion’ over the physical, when in fact it is the physical body and the breath of life that sustains the “me” I identify with as consciousness.

And while this physical existence as my breath may stop at any given moment, putting an end to ‘my existence’ as consciousness, as defined personalities, as memories, reaction-patterns and self-definitions – I do the best to hide from my suppressed fear of death, failing to make the best out of life, FOR LIFE, in every breath.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to consider that definition is not EXPRESSION – rather: it is IMPRESSION, it is input. 

And the output we act-out is equal to and one with the input we have programmed into ourselves and/or accepted and allowed in unawareness;

therefore there exists no actual SELF EXPRESSION yet in this world.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within and as consciousness: I AM definitions ‘made real’ through value-judgments and belief.

We are what we live, and we live our DEFINITIONS of our WORDS in absolute blindness to the origin of those definitions;

let alone to the power and control we have abdicated to the mind consciousness by allowing it to be our autopilot within.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within allowing the conditioned mind consciousness to be the autopilot within: we are per implication accepting the entire system without – the world as we know it.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed DEFINITIONS of WORDS to define me, to determine what I can do/be and what not, to dictate what I fear and what I desire.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand the power of words and to question Why I have abdicated my self-determination and self-definition to words and definitions of this world, allowing ‘them’ / consciousness / the mind to define who I am –

in spite of the fact that I was born without a conditioned mind and without reaction patterns, without judgment and without fear, without a concept of separation and self-interest.

To Be Continued.

ART by Matti Freeman

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