406 | SELF-Management through TIME-Management - or Why You Can’t Have TIME if You don’t Give it to Yourself

ART by Andrew Gable

In the process of re-defining words and investigating the words I live as to their meaning and thus their influence on self, I am today looking at my relationship with TIME, especially in the light of having observed a family member’s relationship to time and how this person created for themselves a life of stress, lack of energy, anxiety and depression, all outcomes of just one relationship: the relationship to Time and how one deals with Time.

I will unfold this point through self-forgiveness in writing, as this is how I walked the point in real-time the moment I noticed that I was having an energetic experience/reaction within myself as soon as an extra task was added to my schedule.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself think and believe that “I don’t have enough time”.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to waste time and breath in thinking all kinds of thoughts ‘justifying’ why “there is not enough time”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make-belief a perception of “there is not enough time”, within this making TIME ‘more than’ me, and making me ‘inferior’ to time.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a state of mind where I am ‘busy’ catching-up, keeping-up, running after time, in essence racing against time –

While I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that time is all I have, as time is measure in breath, and every breath I take is a moment in time that is ‘my time’ as ‘my life’ until my last breath will bring my death which will be the ‘end of my time’.

Within this thus I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stand equal to and one with Time, as every breath I take, realizing that I can only do what I can do in one breath a time, and thus there is no point in ‘thinking’ about time, ‘running after’ time, ‘chasing’ time or even ‘racing against’ time.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that racing against time is a race against myself – and that a race against myself is a race I can never win.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create a fear towards time, fearing to lose time, fearing that I am losing time, fearing that there is not enough time – all the while within such application and by accepting/allowing fear to conquer me and to determine my relationship with time: I am in fact wasting time and breath and am thus not honoring the time given to me as Life on this earth.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create and exist within an energetic ‘rush’, whenever I think and believe I have to rush because “there is not enough time”, within this not only wasting time and breath but also straining my physical body and creating instability within my mind.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect the word time to ‘lack’, wherein I perceive, believe and experience that I ‘lack’ time, and therefore I place myself into a state of mind where I try to ‘find’ more time, while at the same time I waste time in thinking about time and feeding the belief that “there is not enough time”.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect physical movement in time with the generation of energetic movement within myself – based on memories of the past wherein I was taken to school by my parents and I was late and I didn’t like to be late, as that created within me anxiety and a fear about how my being late will be perceived by other children and the teachers. 

Therefore I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to let go of that connection to ‘time’ and ‘stress’, and to teach myself how to move in real-time, in the physical, breath by breath, step by step, without rushing to get ahead of time as I realize that is impossible: time is always here, as the moment that is here, and I am always here as the breath I take in every moment – and thus it is possible to walk one and equal to/as time in every moment.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that all I have to do and all I can do is deal with every moment the moment it is here, deal with that which presents itself in every moment – and that if I do that to the best of my ability, if I give every moment my all, then the perception of “there is not enough time” will have no place.

I commit myself to, when and as I find myself within an energetic reaction as ‘rush’, to stop and breathe, and to slow myself down, reminding myself that I cannot chase after time, that time is here as I am here, and therefore I commit myself to assist and support myself to walk here, breath by breath, moment by moment, step by step.

I commit myself to schedule my time as effective as possible, at the same realizing that a flexibility is vital in terms of adjusting myself and my time with every new moment as necessary – within this allowing space for life’s unexpected events, and letting go of the want/need/desire that I have programmed in mind to control everything, thinking and believing that if I can control everything / control my time, then I will be able to ‘win’ over time, which is stupid and in fact impossible, because I have no power over time, every next moment is here and every breath is followed by the next breath, and so I allow myself to flow with the flow of my breath/breathing, like water, as I see that water can move even through everything, unless it is contained, in which case water can even move within itself.

Therefore within this I also commit myself to stop containing and restricting myself within the constraints of my mind/consciousness, and to unconditionally let go of and forgive the belief that “there is not enough time”, as I re4alize that this is a mental construct that does not support me as life and does not assist me in LIVING.

I commit myself to assist and support myself in LIVING here, moving breath by breath, and no longer allowing myself to place myself ‘inferior’/in-fear-of TIME, as I see and realize that time is all I have, every breath is all I have, and therefore I honor my time as life by honoring every breath I take and doing/living/applying with every breath that which support life, as myself, and my world equally.

I commit myself to stop the race, stop racing against time and stop racing against myself, and to instead: assist and support myself in equalizing my time to breath as I walk my time on this earth, making sure I am here, present in every moment, assisting and supporting myself in the process of walking myself out of the mind’s paranoia and into physical-living, equal as one, in self awareness as breath.

More perspectives on Living Words can be seen here:

Day 405: SELF-MOVEMENT - How to Move Self into Fulfillment
Day 162: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | ACCEPTANCE
Day 164: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | PRESENCE
Day 170: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | INTIMACY & FULFILLMENT 
Day 171: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | HAPPINESS & JOY
Day 172: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | PATIENCE part1

Day 173: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | PATIENCE part2 

Day 404: SELF-FULFILLMENT All-One ... In the name of Life

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Further, for the Serious Truth-Seeker:

Comprehensive Insight and practical Support in the process of Understanding the Mind...

Paranoia – The Home of Human Reason – part 1 

Paranoia – The Home of Human Reason – part 2

Paranoia and Stopping the Mind

The Lovey Paranoia

Thinking is for Losers

Relationship Paranoia Guidelines

...and Consciousness

Suicide Paranoia - 1 - What is Paranoia?

Suicide Paranoia - 2 - How/Why Thought Is (and creates) Paranoia 

Suicide Paranoia - 3 - The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia - Energy Dimension I.

Suicide Paranoia - 4 - The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia - Energy Dimension II.

Insights on Brainwashing and Mind Control:

Motherhood and Brainwashing

Brainwashing - The Secret History

Anarchists, Mothers & Brainwashing part 1

Anarchists, Mothers & Brainwashing part 2

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Equal Money Movement
Equal Money Capitalism - Economist's Journey to Life
Politics and Political Action Re-Evaluated

Criminology, Cause & Effect, and How to establish a Society that's Pro-Life
Practicality for the Transcendence Process of Human Systems

Common Sense Considerations in the Light of Mankind's History

Psychology and How it can be used to Support Human Life

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http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com

http://activistsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
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356 | Self Commitment - Stopping the Negativity in My Life

Continuing from
Day 355 | Misfit > Transfit > Earthling > LIFE : A New Destiny is Possible
Day 354 | The Nastiness of the Misfit
Day 352 | My Life Journey from Misfit to Earthling
Day 351 | “My Life” - The Ignorance of the Misfit
Day 350 | Beliefs & Self-Definitions in relation to „My Life“
Day 349 | Self Commitment - Responsibility for „My Life“ & Responsibility for Life as a Whole
Day 348 | Self Commitment - "My Life"
Day 347 | Self Commitment & Desteni I Process



In the context of deconstructing the self-definition of/as the ‘misfit’, I came to see that I had existed in absolute negativity throughout my life, even at the time where I followed spiritual paths and attempted to ‘compensate’ for the suppressed or denied negativity through the opposite polarity of consciousness: ‘positivity’.
Obviously, what is crystal clear already (and here you can read my previous blog posts to understand the polarity construct) is that that ‘positivity’ I had existed in and held onto throughout the time I was following spiritual paths was not real positivity, was not something that produced measurable positive results in fact, but only a make-belief ‘state of mind’ that was ‘positive’, like a self-hypnosis, a bubble within which I could for a moment ‘feel better’ about myself so that I did not have to investigate the truth of myself and take self-responsibility.

Once I came across Desteni and started asking questions, and once I was willing to question not only the world system, but also the min system and within that my very own mind consciousness – I started seeing how polarity constructs exist and how we trap ourselves in polarity (both individually as human beings and collectively as humanity and the world systems), failing to see the solutions that are here once we start seeing beyond polarity.



An interesting point to see, a point we opened up in a group chat while discussing negativity, is the following:
“The 99% will not do anything to change the world – they believe they cannot – they are controlled completely by negativity.
And thus the 1% through lying and stealing and war can have it all. Nothing will change – they are the evil so to speak – but in fact the 99% is the real evil: accepting and allowing this to exist. And in spite of the evidence on every screen daily around the world – there is no change. And change will take many years and great suffering.”
Negativity is the totality of human nature. That’s why things like the ‘law of attraction’ and other new-age spirit-dualities make money: people are desperate and will do anything to try and find some ‘happiness’…

The question is: 

Why does humanity only seems to learn through suffering? And why is the suffering of half the world not enough – Why is it only when our OWN are affected that we consider the necessity for change?

How come one is not able to feel the suffering of trillions of beings – yet one is able to be happy?

Why is it that one will place one’s own interest first and justify why that which is really important can never be? 

Why does a world view prevail where only one’s own happiness counts while one sees it as impossible that all can be happy?

Why is it that negativity always wins when it comes to life responsibility?

Is it so difficult to simply Be Here Alive – neither negative nor positive, no state of mind, but direct Beingness, walking in awareness as an equal part of the whole and thus standing in responsibility for LIFE as a whole!





I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as negativity.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that within negativity I am in fact sabotaging myself and keeping myself from finding real practical solutions for my life, my world, my reality.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that all negativity or positivity that ever existed within and as my mind was always self-created, accepted and allowed, based on the thoughts I would follow or the emotional/feeling reactions I would identify with and believe in, without investigating where they come from and what the ‘logic’ behind them really is.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I had become addicted to negativity, as negativity had become the fuel which I used to fuel myself.

Within this I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I was creating myself as a consciousness that feeds on negativity, and thus in turn brings up more and more negativity to keep itself running ‘as is’.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create fear based on the negativity I was clinging onto – instead of realizing that I was creating my own fears and on top of that I was even creating a fear-reaction towards those fears.

Therefore I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to manipulate myself with fear, to manipulate myself with negativity, to manipulate myself with positivity.

I forgive myself that I had accepted and allowed myself to place myself as ‘inferior’ to my own mind, my own consciousness – and to from that ‘inferiority’ to make myself subject to my own consciousness based on its conditioned patterns, within that becoming subject to and submerged to the consciousness patterns I had accepted and allowed to define me and the experience of myself.

I realize that, since I am in a position to look at and see my consciousness, as my own thoughts in my mind and my own reactions within myself, then I must be more than just the thoughts, feelings and emotions that come up within me.

Therefore I commit myself to take directive principle of myself as the authority of myself, as one and equal with everything that I am as what exists within me – and to direct everything that exists within me as me towards a practical living application that ensures I live in self-dignity and integrity, no longer accepting or allowing myself to submit to the conditioned consciousness patterns of my conditioned mind.

I commit myself to investigate all consciousness patterns that exist within me as me, so that I may direct each point, moving myself beyond the polarities of the mind and into actual living-solutions that will ensure I live a life of self-support in self-honesty, no longer accepting or allowing myself to limit myself or to submit to mental constructs in order to hide from the actuality of reality.

I commit myself to slow myself down enough to be able to in every moment of breath make a decision about ‘who I am’ in this moment and how I will deal with and direct my reality at any given moment in a way that is best for all, that is best for life, which includes me as an equal of life.

I commit myself to stop any and all negativity within me, as well as to stop any and all positivity within me that is of the mind/consciousness, so as to stop myself from existing within and as a ‘state of mind’ (which is always limited) and to instead move myself to live practically and pragmatically the best possible choice I can make at any given moment, according to what is best for me as life – as I realize that within such self-application I am in fact able to create measurably positive results for-real that will have an actual impact on my life and life as a whole.



See my Vlogs on Polarity and Bipolar Patterns:
Beyond Polarity – Self-Creation in a Bipolar World
Stop Mind-Control from the Inside-Out to Self-Realize Life
Question Light & Dark – All Religion is Enslavement


See Blogs on Negativity by fellow Destonians:
Negativity – Greatest Platform for Mind Control
Stop Being So Negative!
Negativity – Run your Ass off!

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Blogs to follow:

Equal Money Movement
Equal Money Capitalism - Economist's Journey to Life

Criminology and What we can Learn from Crime to establish a Society that's Pro-Life

Common Sense considerations on the Background of Mankind's History

Psychology and How it can be used to actually Support the Human Being

MUST-READ on Life and Creation:

http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

http://earthsjourneytolife.blogspot.com

http://heavensjourneytolife.blogspot.com

http://activistsjourneytolife.blogspot.com
http://desteni.org/articles

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http://equalmoney.org/forum/

http://desteniIprocess.com

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* The Spirituality of the Snail <<< MP3 Download
* Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* How I was able to Hear the Desteni Message <<< PDF Download - Blog Compilation
* What the FAQ in an Equal Money System – Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* Hell Spoof <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality
* What makes me Starve in a World of Plenty <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality


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