406 | SELF-Management through TIME-Management - or Why You Can’t Have TIME if You don’t Give it to Yourself

ART by Andrew Gable

In the process of re-defining words and investigating the words I live as to their meaning and thus their influence on self, I am today looking at my relationship with TIME, especially in the light of having observed a family member’s relationship to time and how this person created for themselves a life of stress, lack of energy, anxiety and depression, all outcomes of just one relationship: the relationship to Time and how one deals with Time.

I will unfold this point through self-forgiveness in writing, as this is how I walked the point in real-time the moment I noticed that I was having an energetic experience/reaction within myself as soon as an extra task was added to my schedule.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself think and believe that “I don’t have enough time”.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to waste time and breath in thinking all kinds of thoughts ‘justifying’ why “there is not enough time”.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make-belief a perception of “there is not enough time”, within this making TIME ‘more than’ me, and making me ‘inferior’ to time.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to exist within and as a state of mind where I am ‘busy’ catching-up, keeping-up, running after time, in essence racing against time –

While I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that time is all I have, as time is measure in breath, and every breath I take is a moment in time that is ‘my time’ as ‘my life’ until my last breath will bring my death which will be the ‘end of my time’.

Within this thus I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to stand equal to and one with Time, as every breath I take, realizing that I can only do what I can do in one breath a time, and thus there is no point in ‘thinking’ about time, ‘running after’ time, ‘chasing’ time or even ‘racing against’ time.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that racing against time is a race against myself – and that a race against myself is a race I can never win.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create a fear towards time, fearing to lose time, fearing that I am losing time, fearing that there is not enough time – all the while within such application and by accepting/allowing fear to conquer me and to determine my relationship with time: I am in fact wasting time and breath and am thus not honoring the time given to me as Life on this earth.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create and exist within an energetic ‘rush’, whenever I think and believe I have to rush because “there is not enough time”, within this not only wasting time and breath but also straining my physical body and creating instability within my mind.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect the word time to ‘lack’, wherein I perceive, believe and experience that I ‘lack’ time, and therefore I place myself into a state of mind where I try to ‘find’ more time, while at the same time I waste time in thinking about time and feeding the belief that “there is not enough time”.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect physical movement in time with the generation of energetic movement within myself – based on memories of the past wherein I was taken to school by my parents and I was late and I didn’t like to be late, as that created within me anxiety and a fear about how my being late will be perceived by other children and the teachers. 

Therefore I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to let go of that connection to ‘time’ and ‘stress’, and to teach myself how to move in real-time, in the physical, breath by breath, step by step, without rushing to get ahead of time as I realize that is impossible: time is always here, as the moment that is here, and I am always here as the breath I take in every moment – and thus it is possible to walk one and equal to/as time in every moment.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that all I have to do and all I can do is deal with every moment the moment it is here, deal with that which presents itself in every moment – and that if I do that to the best of my ability, if I give every moment my all, then the perception of “there is not enough time” will have no place.

I commit myself to, when and as I find myself within an energetic reaction as ‘rush’, to stop and breathe, and to slow myself down, reminding myself that I cannot chase after time, that time is here as I am here, and therefore I commit myself to assist and support myself to walk here, breath by breath, moment by moment, step by step.

I commit myself to schedule my time as effective as possible, at the same realizing that a flexibility is vital in terms of adjusting myself and my time with every new moment as necessary – within this allowing space for life’s unexpected events, and letting go of the want/need/desire that I have programmed in mind to control everything, thinking and believing that if I can control everything / control my time, then I will be able to ‘win’ over time, which is stupid and in fact impossible, because I have no power over time, every next moment is here and every breath is followed by the next breath, and so I allow myself to flow with the flow of my breath/breathing, like water, as I see that water can move even through everything, unless it is contained, in which case water can even move within itself.

Therefore within this I also commit myself to stop containing and restricting myself within the constraints of my mind/consciousness, and to unconditionally let go of and forgive the belief that “there is not enough time”, as I re4alize that this is a mental construct that does not support me as life and does not assist me in LIVING.

I commit myself to assist and support myself in LIVING here, moving breath by breath, and no longer allowing myself to place myself ‘inferior’/in-fear-of TIME, as I see and realize that time is all I have, every breath is all I have, and therefore I honor my time as life by honoring every breath I take and doing/living/applying with every breath that which support life, as myself, and my world equally.

I commit myself to stop the race, stop racing against time and stop racing against myself, and to instead: assist and support myself in equalizing my time to breath as I walk my time on this earth, making sure I am here, present in every moment, assisting and supporting myself in the process of walking myself out of the mind’s paranoia and into physical-living, equal as one, in self awareness as breath.

More perspectives on Living Words can be seen here:

Day 405: SELF-MOVEMENT - How to Move Self into Fulfillment
Day 162: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | ACCEPTANCE
Day 164: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | PRESENCE
Day 170: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | INTIMACY & FULFILLMENT 
Day 171: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | HAPPINESS & JOY
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Day 173: Living Words in Self Agreement as Life | PATIENCE part2 

Day 404: SELF-FULFILLMENT All-One ... In the name of Life

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Day 11: Bringing myself back to What is Here - Working with What is Here

As I am still finding myself very much in the survival mode of not having enough money to have actual choices in life, I am looking for a solution to the reaction of 'panicking' about 'not making it' in this world - which is obviously to stop the fear, stop the panic, stop the backchat and look at what is here, to consider the practical possibilities of how to best work with what is here.

Since I can remember I was trying to do things on my own and be 'independent', especially as a form of rebelling against the over-protectiveness of my mother who used to want to do things FOR me, arrange things FOR me, design my life FOR me - and in that she would in a way take away my responsibility, which I then always tried to 'take back' and 'prove'.

Today, ironically, I sometimes find myself wishing for someone to 'mother' me, or wishing for a father to just be here for me, and I find myself all alone in my world, having to actually take responsibility for myself.

I always wanted to be alone and make it alone, as I had mistaken that for 'freedom' and 'independence' - not wanting to acknowledge and accept the fact that life is interdependent and that we have to work together in this world.

I feared interdependence as I perceived it as dependency, all the while I was creating an actual dependency to the concept of 'independence' and 'freedom' within my mind.

In my younger years I often fell victim to bullying and spitefulness and so I manifested a fear of people and started avoiding people out of fear of being ridiculed, fear of rejection, fear of that experience of inferiority and awkwardness that I experienced as a child and young adult.

So I effectively pushed everything and everyone away from me throughout my life and I attempted to walk a path of 'self-enlightenment' through the mind. Needless to say I had a rude awakening, especially once I came across Desteni and realized the delusional and self-righteous beliefs I was caught up within - realizing the delusion of beliefs in general for that matter. I saw that I had created myself an alternate reality based on pretence, wishful-thinking and an imposed 'positivity', whose only purpose was to hide and suppress the actual experience of myself in relation to the actuality of my reality.

After I spent three years on the Desteni farm where I woke up from several of my self-delusions, as well as woke up to several points of my own truth as what I had become yet denied throughout my life, I decided to 'return to the matrix' to test who I am and to make the best out of myself in a process of standing equal to the system as the only way to change the system into something that will be best for all.

Now - over a year has passed and I am finding myself still unequal to the system. I have not been able to mingle with people to the extent I would have liked to and establish myself as a presence of self-equality, plus I am trapped within survival conditions that do not allow for choices and expansion towards something that would place me in a position of responsibility.

Seeing this and observing my reaction to the point, that's where I start considering that perhaps I am looking too 'far away', perhaps I am enslaving myself to unconscious accepted beliefs and ideas about what taking responsibility entails, about what walking the world matrix entails, about what 'making it' or being 'effective' in this world entails.

Perhaps I am looking at idealized concepts of myself and the world - instead of looking at what is here and how I can best work with what is here.

Therefore - let me bring the point back here.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compare myself and my life to other people’s lives in this world - wherein through comparison I perceive that I don't have anything while others have everything in terms of chances and support in this world, obviously failing to consider that everyone is walking their own consequences and facing their own creation as themselves.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to compare myself and my life to ideas and ideals of 'effectiveness' and 'success' as they exist within my mind, brainwashed into me through movies, media, the consumer-society and the money-system of this world – instead of working with the actuality of my reality to get myself to a point of self-equality and oneness as starting-point of a trans-formation, a new creation, a correction of all that which I have allowed to bind and define me.

I forgive myself that I've allowed myself to accept a money-system that imposes onto us ideas and concepts of 'success' and 'failure' based in fake values of the mental in inequality, while disregarding the physical reality we all equally share.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exist within despair and anxiety towards my life/me in the world, based on judgments I have accepted and/or created about myself and the world rooted in the morality of polarity as the mind-control philosophy of this world.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to want, need and desire some 'profound' experience to feel better about myself, something to give me ‘more worth’ - instead of realizing that I am obviously walking the manifested consequences of myself; meaning that what I am faced and confronted with is the result of my own acceptances and allowances, the result of my participation or non-participation throughout my life, the result of my own judgment, self-judgment and accepted fear – and therefore it is to stop the judgment, stop the fear and make myself worthy of life as life in self-responsibility and self-dignity.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to accept and manifest fear in relation to this world matrix, wherein I've allowed myself to exist in accepted 'inferiority' towards the world system and have been constantly attempting to 'redeem myself' through superimposing an apparent 'superiority', in a way trying to stand above things, which is like trying to stay above water and not sink: which obviously takes a lot of effort and uses up a lot of energy, which I would not have needed to engage into had I only accepted what is here as me. Therefore the solution is to first accept what is here as me and stand within and as self-equality and oneness, to then walk in humbleness and humility the process of re-forming what is here as me.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to exist within a mode of trying to 'prove' myself - rooted in inferiority patterns of the past from when I was a child.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to realize and accept self-equality and oneness, bringing myself 'down to the essence' of my creation as what I am faced and confronted with - realizing that it is from this point of self-equality and oneness only that I'll be able to make relevant and informed decisions towards a self-correction that will redeem life in all possible ways.

I commit myself to walking this process of removing the accepted mind-control as fears, beliefs and self-definitions that are rooted in polarity judgments passed onto us by the generations before - because I can see within the history of mankind that such judgments are only causing history to repeat without considering life as a whole; such judgments are only causing the repetition of patterns of separation, self-interest and greed/fear, both on the bigger scale as the world as well as the smaller scale as one’s individual life experience.

I commit myself to stopping the comparison that is manifested in all possible ways - so that I may align myself to oneness and equality of life within the starting-point of self-equality and oneness - which implies the self-forgiveness of the accepted consciousness patterns that keep us enslaved in separate bubbles of the mental, the end of suppression and denial about who we are and what the world is, and the taking of full self-responsibility for who we are, how we exist and what we are creating through our participation in every breath.

I commit myself to stopping myself from following the preprogrammed ideas and ideals of the mind in relation to ‘who I am’ and ‘who I should be’ in this world.

I commit myself to effectively working with what is here, instead of projecting and superimposing the mental onto the physical, because I realize that such application is only manifesting more delusion and consequences.

I commit myself to getting to self-clarity about where I stand and what I am walking - getting to self-honesty and applying practical common sense to support myself in standing-up as life in self-dignity, thus within this also placing myself in a position of being able to support my world and others in my world that find themselves in similar situations.

I commit myself to stopping anxiety and any reactions towards my life and my experience of myself - realizing that what I am facing is simply the manifested consequences of myself that I require to walk through, because it is the result and outflow of who I have been and how I have existed; realizing that it will take some time of corrective application to re-form the patterns of existence into that which is best for all and to walk myself into and as self-trust, self-worth, self-dignity and self-enjoyment.

I commit myself to investigating the beliefs and ideas that govern my mind - to debunk all delusion and get myself to practical common sense, working with what is here to purify what is here.

I commit myself to investigating the universal beliefs and ideas that we've accepted and allowed to enslave existence - to debunk all delusion and bring forth common sense so that all may see and realize the necessity to stop, stand-up and re-form this existence into something that is worthy of life, a world that is best for all life equally.