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Samstag, 7. Juli 2012

Day 81: Characters in Power-Games | Humanity as World-System

ART by Matti Freeman



The following post is a continuation of the previous two posts:

For further context please read:


The basic point that is evident within the context of character building, is that the development of characters as personalities in this world is in fact the building of constructs through and as which we try to ‘cope’ in this world –
and that already when a child is born, its environment will anticipate and project concepts amd constructs of definitions and value-judgments, according to which the child will develop systems of mental and emotional reaction-patterns which in turn form characters as personalities through which the child manipulates its interaction within its world to get what it wants.

Within this it is obvious that all characters as personalities on the stage of this world are based in the separation of the being from itself as life, as every child develops its characters from the starting-point of self-interest in an attempt to cope with its environment – and because its environment already functions through manipulation (first of all the ‘reward’ and ‘punishment’ tactics the parents utilize) and presents no practical ways of equal and direct communication that would support the child in developing self-acceptance, self-trust and self-honesty, the child will equally start developing manipulation tactics in its attempt to stand up to the insensibility and inequality it is exposed to.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that the family is the first environment within which such constructs are developed, and the ‘love’ that is claimed is actually related to the fulfillment of certain roles through developing the respective characters so that the child ‘fits in’ and pleases the family members –
and so within that, the characters and personalities of the child to be serve the maintenance of the patterns the parents/family had already established as personalities within the context of the world system; and within that, such patterns only perpetuate the world as we know it.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that all love of this world is conditional – as it is always about validating one’s own self-created character/personality as self-image. Within this, a child is created to do exactly that, and friends and ‘loved ones’ are selected always from the starting-point of self-validation as self-image.

I commit myself to showing how as characters we not only trap ourselves within constructs that serve ‘values’ other than LIFE (ideas of image, power, status, success etc.) – we also trap everyone around us to remain in THEIR characters/personalities, because as long as personalities ‘validate’ each-other: the ‘harmony’ is maintained and all can continue living the lie of being ‘something’ that is apparently ‘valuable’ when in fact the actual value of life has been abdicated as less important /less valuable.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that our world as we know it – where everyone plays a role like a character in a movie – is in fact evidence that we have lost touch with life, we have disregarded the value of life and have created ‘value’-constructs that replace life, seen in the fact that in our actual living application we place more value in such fake ‘values’ (ideas of image, power, status, success etc.)

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that the constructs we have created through and as consciousness are always based on polarity and can only exist within and through polarity, seen in for instance the constructs of love/hate, reward/punishment, superiority/inferiority, power/powerlessness etc.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that an existence of characters as personalities is always about the MORE – where we play the game to get more love, more acceptance, more money, more sex, more fame, more satisfaction, more power, more control, more validation, more feeling, a higher kick, more experience, more importance.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that within such equation where each one is always only pursuing self-interest as MORE for ME or MORE of ME – it is no wonder that our world has become what it is today with all of our systems based on one thing: profit, which in itself is based on the concept of MORE for ME.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that the existence of characters is in fact an existence of deception – because if everyone is existing for the MORE, then one will have to find ways to deceive because everybody else also want MORE, but within a construct of polarity: for one to have MORE, others must have LESS.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that within this we are in fact deceiving ourselves – deceiving life – as we follow fake ‘values’ and ideas of grandeur, yet we only want the GOODIES for ourselves, and thus fail to CARE for LIFE as all as one as equals – and therefore we are deceiving ourselves as life as what we really are, and make ourselves ‘real’ only as characters in a virtual reality that is our mind where we can hide and plot the ways to get MORE to satisfy our addiction for more, which is actually based in our accepted inferiority/fear and the separation of ourselves from ourselves as life.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that if it weren’t for our accepted inferiority and fear – there would be no need to create ideas and concepts of MORE and to then go into the human RACE of survival where we are constantly comparing ourselves and competing against each-other, against ourselves, against all odds – because in the end everyone bites the dust and returns to the source that is the physical, yet that is too late as consequently at death one has no awareness, because all attention, all awareness, all energy was invested in the inhuman race for MORE as mental concepts and ideas of grandeur while disregarding our physical bodies, our neighbor as ourselves and the earth that feeds us, disregarding all life as a whole and the fact the 2/3 of the world population exist in atrocious conditions, yet we didn’t give a shit, because we were busy following the shit that the consumerism system serves us on shiny golden platters.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that the development of characters as personalities is in fact a malevolent possession of the human body through the mental, where the physical is forced to embody the mental concepts and characters of this world consciousness, in spite of the pain, abuse and deterioration that this results into.

I commit myself to showing the common sense that even though we are born as a physical body without a ‘character’, without personalities and concepts of consciousness – the body in this world is not allowed, not supported to embody an expression of life, but is forced to embody systems of consciousness as coping mechanisms to survive in this world consciousness system; and that characters as personalities are thus but a survival systems within, to cope with the survival system that is this world.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that as long as we create ourselves as personalities only and identify ourselves with ‘who we are’ as personalities, caring only for the preservation of such constructs: we abdicate our right to life and thus deny ourselves and each-other access to life, which is in fact the physical reality that we all share.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that characters as personalities are based on mental concepts of ‘grandeur’ – yet seriously: how can we expect of ourselves to be anything ‘more’ in any other reality/realm, if we do not even manage or care to make the best for ALL of this ONE simple reality we all EQUALLY share HERE!



Samstag, 14. April 2012

Day 1: Waking Up from the Depression


Waking up and the sun shines. An awkward feeling comes over me, as if I’m comparing myself to the sun. Imagining how people wake up to the sun and feel happy and motivated, while I compare my own state of being with that imagination in my mind.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to feel down and depressed out of an idea of ‘high’ and ‘happy’ that I compare myself to.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think and believe that when the sun shines I should ‘normally’ be all ‘happy’ and ‘high’.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that my life is a failure, a fuck-up, and to wake up in the morning with a feeling of anxiety towards living.
I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to approach life/living from a starting-point of anxiety, which – as I see now – is rooted in ideas of ‘success’ and ‘failure’, wherein I judge myself as ‘failure’ and think that I should be more ‘successful’.
Whereby I have defined ‘success’ and ‘failure’ in relation to how I perceive myself and how I think and believe others perceive me – which also reveals a point of comparison and thus competition.
Wherein in fact I am competing with ideas of myself in the mind, ideas of life, ideas of success and failure – instead of simply realizing that I am walking the manifested consequences of myself, of who I have accepted and allowed myself to be and become and define myself as.

Manifested consequences are just that, they need not be seen as ‘bad’ or ‘good’. The mere realization that how I have existed has not actually been really supporting me as life = in expanding myself, expressing myself, breaking through any limitations and perceptions of polarity,  is opening up the opportunity to simply take this realization and start the actual process of self-forgiveness: of letting go of all judgment, polarity and mental concepts of ‘success’ and ‘failure’, and simply start living the purification of myself as I change my participation into practical-living that is best for life.

Looking at the manifested consequences of myself, looking at my life and how I experience myself in general, what I see is a point of isolation, a point of withdrawal. I look at the point of people and relationships throughout my life and I see that I never really cared for creating relationships, never really approached people from the perspective of ‘getting together’ or forming something that is truly actually supportive as best for all. When I saw that, I first started judging myself and going into guilt, and then I realized that this also is not a solution. I must forgive myself this pattern of isolation and separation and start seeing people as part of me, part of this world I am equal to, part of the same system I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in and manifest as the very reality we all share day in and day out.

What I am realizing is that this depression upon waking up is a reaction towards facing the manifested consequences of myself – whereby the solution is simply to realize that there is no way out of this, there is no escaping from self, and that even within the process of self-forgiveness and changing/transforming the accepted patterns and behaviours that led to the current creation I am facing: there will be a time where I have to walk through the consequences that are the outflow of my life thus far, the outflow of all the acceptances and allowances that I accumulated breath by breath.

And breath by breath I will walk through the consequences and I am able to utilize the realization of such consequences to understand what I have created, how I have created it (through what acceptances, what behaviourisms, what ideas and assumptions) and thus how I am able to stop all that which is not supporting life, to stop all that which is an expression of fear, of judgment, of separation, of ego.

So, breath by breath, I walk, I forgive, I realize that what I am facing in the present is the past. And that to change the future I have to forgive the past in the present, let go of the past in every present moment, and live a new-expression, a purification of the past in every here-moment, as I am here, and therefore I am the determining factor of my reality, within and without.


So – depression can be utilized as a flag-point to stop. To stop suppressing ourselves and succumbing to emotional moods that are the result of the backchat in our secret mind – and to start de-pressing the layers of consciousness under which we hide. To finally start opening up, start seeing the truth of ourselves, start forgiving the abuse and self-sabotage we’ve been existing as; and start expanding into and as LIFE – practical living best for all.

When and as I see myself going into depression, I stop, I breathe, and I remind myself that this depression is but a reaction to the present that is of the past, a reaction to the consequences of myself, a reaction based in judgment, polarity, fear and self-sabotage – and therefore I stop the reaction, I stop self-judgment, I breathe, I stand up and I start walking, breath by breath, in self-forgiveness, until it’s done and neither ‘high’ nor ‘low’ remains; until only I remain, pure, present, blank, ready to take on this whole existence that is myself and live it into a new creation that is best for life in all possible ways.