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Mittwoch, 5. Juni 2013

400 | Fulfillment Paranoia – How do I Fill my cup Full?







Continuing from
399 | Paranoia is like a ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ - But who fills the cup?
398 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh - part 2
397 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh
396 | The Creation Process of Paranoia Begins in the MEnial
395 | Human Paranoia Keeps History Repeating – How to Stop 
394 | The Paranoia of “I don’t want to become like my Parents”


in the context of




So, continuing from yesterday’s post, I re-looked at the points elaborated on and realized that, that feeling of ‘emptiness’ is not even really there, and this I can see specifically when I do take a moment in time to be with myself, move for myself, care for myself – and it is fulfilling, I am satisfied.



So this ‘feeling’ that I referred to – which I came to look-into because I had asked myself the question: Where does this habit of ‘keeping myself busy’ come from? Why do I do it?’ – I realized it´s more like an ingrained belief, like an anticipation, like an echo that resonates, like a phantom from the past. But it´s not real.



And I remember keeping myself busy as a child and teenager as well, I had many lessons to attend and stuff to do, I was always either going to a lesson or coming from a lesson or preparing for a lesson or studying or training in sports. At that point this was pretty cool, because I got to move around by myself and didn´t have to put up with my parents who weren´t all that happy in their marriage, and at home there was an underlying atmosphere resonating that I just couldn´t stand, the lunch table for instance was my worst place to be… parents giving each-other the silent treatment or speaking to each-other not nicely at all… I simply did not want to be part of that. So – I kept myself busy.

(In a previous blog post I talked about the point of Living vs. Doing, and here one can also look at how we teach our children ‘doing’ instead of Living…)





Now this habit has become so ingrained that I´ll often only get myself to bed when it´s already very late, and within that I don´t give myself the time and ‘luxury’ to ground myself into my body after a day´s work, to rest before I sleep, to check what my physical requires, some movement, some massaging for instance.



I had also referred to a point of ‘distraction’  in my previous post, where I mentioned for instance eating, drinking coffee, smoking – and here I´d like to share a clarification: it´s not that these things are distractions in themselves. So here it is really clear and one can see: It´s not what you do that determines who you are; it´s who you are that determines what you do.

Meaning – it´s not about what I do, it´s about who I am within what I do = why I do what I do at any given moment. The starting-point determines everything. It´s who I am that determines what I do. So if I am in a state of ‘hiding from the emptiness of myself’ then getting something to eat for instance can be an act of distraction.




And it's interesting because, as I mentioned in the previous post, it seems I had created a ‘fear of emptiness’ and this emptiness is a FEELING that I defined as ‘negative’ – so from that starting-point I’ll then look for things to do that will give me a FEELING of ‘fulfillment’ which would be the opposite-polarity as ‘positive’;

But what can be seen here is that neither the one (‘positive’) nor the other (‘negative’) is real, it´s both just mental constructs that I make-believe (and here one can reference the previous posts about how from a small, menial point/experience one can through thinking and giving it attention in the mind and ‘validating’  and ‘justifying’ it: accumulate a complete paranoia about it, ending-up seeing nothing else).





Another interesting dimension to look a is: how distraction is in fact a form of Consumerism, it´s about Getting; and one is looking for something or someone to consume, to distract oneself with – one is looking for a FEELING that is ‘filling’:

and that would be the system-definition of Fulfillment. That is in fact Consumerism, that is self-interest.



On the other hand, if one walks in awareness as breath, meaning Being Here present in every moment and not attached to, not influenced by, not defined by energetic experiences (‘positive’ / ‘negative’), one is in fact LIVING, one is Giving; one is not looking / seeking / waiting / hoping to Get.

That would be actual self-fulfillment - 


Who one is and how one lives and participates in every moment with every breath is how one fulfill oneself, fulfill one´s life, one´s time and space – thus making oneself and one´s life meaningful, Giving as one would like to receive.







An interesting perspective to see here is the point of Equality & Oneness:

Creator - Creating - Creation.


A Creation is always equal to its Creator.



Hence the question in today's blog title – and the choice that we each face:

What am I filling my cup with? How am I filling my cup full?


Is it Life? Or is it Illusion?




I mean, if we as creators were Life, we'd be creating/manifesting Life:

Creator/Life - Creating/Living - Creation/Life.



But have a look: 


Fascinatingly enough all individual creators/creations together form and manifest this world, this reality, this existence as One = Our Creation. 
And it is self-evident that our Oneness here on earth is no pretty picture, our creation is rather atrocious, causing much suffering and abuse, no only to the human but all other kingdoms and to our home planet itself.




So something went wrong, and this something can be summed-up to the word CONsumerism, which is something not only pertaining to the economic system but also the mind system that has become the human consciousness.



The economic system is the fraud, the collective illusion, that gives everyone and each one the individual illusion of what we call ‘life’ while exploiting life for profit – and this system is used to apparently ‘validate’ and ‘justify’ human nature, and vice versa ‘human nature’ is used to apparently ‘validate’ and ‘justify’ the System –


But there´s one thing you can be sure of: those that claim human nature cannot change, are those that profit from the System and to whom any self-empowering change would be a threat.

Human nature is programmable, and what human nature currently is was specifically indoctrinated and conditioned by those that did understand something about how consciousness works and how the human / how life can be used and abused in the name of profit (see the documentary The Century of Self and dare yourself to investigate the implications of what is shown).

The System creates a paranoid human being, a human being in the image and likeness of the System – and thus such human being has in fact no choice but to in turn re-create the System in its image and likeness.

Creator and Creation – equal and one. Our Oneness is CONsumerism.





So – it´s time to break the vicious circle! Stop this Creation – find Common Sense – Re-evaluate – See Cause & Effect – CHANGE – Create a World that will in fact and in all ways, always, be Best for All Life.



Thus – to stop the atrocity that we´ve been accepting and allowing and calling ‘life’ – it is to Stop the System within and without; to Stop the CONsumption of life, and start Giving Life – for ourselves, and for all as one.

Thus – a process of correction and purification is required, both individually, within our inner realities, and collectively within our World as a whole; through self-honest Self-Responsibility and thus Responsibility for Life as a Whole.



So please, do investigate Desteni where you can explore and realize self-honesty and self-responsibility, and also do investigate the Equal Money movement and the Equal Life Foundation where Human Rights and the Right to Life is being redefined to ensure actual freedom, actual dignity, and the actual value of Life as such; Let's Start LIVING – Stop Survival – Bring forth LIFE! That would truly be a world where we could ALL have some Real FUN! For-Real!







In my next blog post I’ll continue in this context with walking self-commitment statements and practical corrective applications for me to LIVE.


Stay tuned.







For comprehensive Insight and practical Support please study







as well as




For Insights on Brainwashing read

Anarchists, Mothers & Brainwashing part 2





















Check out the Desteni I Process Lite –  a FREE course that will assist humanity to end the disaster of a dysfunctional consciousness.


Check out the Equal Money System –  a solution that can be established in this lifetime to end the disaster of a profit driven system.


Check out the Bill of Rights @ the Equal Life Foundation - a comprehensive approach to our Co-existence to ensure the Right to Life, Freedom and Dignity for All.



Study:



MUST-READ on Life and Creation:


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http://forum.desteni.org
http://equalmoney.org/forum/


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* LifeReview - My Life as a Peace Activist <<< MP3 Download
* The Spirituality of the Snail <<< MP3 Download
* Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* How I was able to Hear the Desteni Message <<< PDF Download - Blog Compilation

* What the FAQ in an Equal Money System – Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* Hell Spoof <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality
* What makes me Starve in a World of Plenty <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality



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Dienstag, 4. Juni 2013

399 | Paranoia is like a ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ - But who fills the cup?



 
ART by Anna Brix Thomsen




This post in the context of

and continuing from
398 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh - part 2
397 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh
396 | The Creation Process of Paranoia Begins in the MEnial
395 | Human Paranoia Keeps History Repeating – How to Stop 
394 | The Paranoia of “I don’t want to become like my Parents”  




Yes, so, realizing that any obsession/paranoia about anything starts at a small, menial, seemingly unimportant level, and grows the more we feed it with attention, I looked at the interesting point that this point is literally like a self-fulfilling prophecy.

The word self-fulfilling is quite operative here, and I in fact imagined how the thoughts that come-up in one’s mind to ‘validate’ or ‘justify’ an emotional/feeling reaction one had towards a situation/person/word/event in a moment literally start filling up one’s mind/consciousness until it’s full, and voilà, the obsessed becomes possessed and the point that one has been giving attention to ‘fulfills itself’ and ‘becomes real’ within one’s consciousness, to such an extent that the emotional/feeling experience becomes overwhelming and physically noticeable, which goes to show how we allow mental-states and consciousness-systems to literally fulfill as in occupy as in possess our body experience and physical behavior.

(To understand the nitty-gritty of the creation process of such ‘state of mind’ that becomes a state of being wherein one is literally occupied by and preoccupied with this ONE single point that one had allowed to take all one’s attention and focus: please read my previous blog posts that I reference at the beginning of this post as well as the links at the bottom!)




Now –
Back to the word self-fulfilling, which is the word fulfillment.

I have walked through some self-forgiveness points on this one, speaking the words out loud as I opened-up the point for myself to see, and I'd like to write out and share the essence of that in this post here:


I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to perceive, experience and define my life as ‘empty’, not only because I had not ‘achieved’ what in the world/system is seen as ‘success’, but also because this emotional/feeling experience is something that is like just ‘there’ within me since I was a child.

Therefore I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed this/such definition for myself and my life without investigating and understanding where this/such feeling comes from and whether it is in fact valid.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to keep myself ‘busy’ and ‘doing’ things, because I had wanted to avoid and ignore this feeling of ‘emptiness’, as I had charged it with a ‘negative’ judgment and within that had formed a ‘fear of emptiness’ –
which, looking back at the Blog posts I wrote in the past weeks wherein I walked through the points of self-worth and value, I realize that I had given the perception/feeling/emotional-experience of ‘emptiness’ a ‘negative value’, and because I had accepted this experience as me, as my life, as who I am – I had within that sabotaged my self-worth and disregarded my value as life.

What I saw and realized is how I kept myself ‘full’ by filling myself with ‘stuff to do’ and ‘stuff to think about’, eating, drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes, all this stuff and everything I did, even relationships in my life – was in a way always to done to ‘fill’ the ‘emptiness’ –

Therefore within this, I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that not only the ‘emptiness’ is not real (it is only real as long as I give it ‘value’ and ‘attention’ and allow it to define who I am) – but also the various ways that I had attempted to full-fill myself were not real.

I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that, within that negative definition of myself/my life as ‘empty’ and the ‘fear of emptiness’ which would also be the fear of being ‘worthless’ and my life being without ‘meaning’ (which obviously is all bullshit, because in the end I am the one that determines, one way or another, the meaning and value of my life, namely through what and how I live it), and within attempting to full-fill myself through values of the mind – I had in fact not been here for myself, I had not given myself to chance, the opportunity, the time and the space to be here for me, to care for me, to occupy the space I breathe and simply be here, without needing/wanting/desiring or requiring anything to keep me preoccupied.


I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create within myself a resistance towards simply being here, slowing down, being here for myself, and caring for myself; wherein I’ll often just rush through my day to do the things I gotta do, and I’ll often find myself at the end of the day quite unhappy because I realize I could have taken some moments to rest, to slow down, to bring my awareness back here within and as my physical body, expand my physical movement or stretch – and when I look at the amount of time I spend ‘doing’ and the amount of time I spend with myself for myself to care for myself as a physical being, I see that I could in fact give myself more of myself, I could practically care for myself more – but I tend to get so absorbed within what it is that I’m doing at any given moment, that sometimes hours will pass before I realize that hey, I must now take a break, take a walk, change the environment, move myself.

What I realize is that this tendency is in fact the result of preoccupying myself and not valuing myself /not giving myself the care I require – all out of this negative-definition of perceived ‘emptiness’ that I had accepted about me and my life and which I created a resistance towards and thus preoccupied myself to not have to face it.

So here I am now realizing this is not living, and that I am in fact quite capable of being here for me, and caring for me, giving myself and my life the value that it’s worth, which the value of life. If I had a child, how would I care for my child? That is how I must care for myself, as a physical being, making sure that I meet my physical requirements to within that also honor this physical body that allows me to exist and experience myself in this world here on earth.

I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that this very feeling/emotional-experience of/as ‘emptiness’ has in fact been a point of paranoia within my mind, where out of this/such feeling I formed all kinds of ideas about myself and my world, about my life and the value of it, and obviously throughout the years this point was being fed with my attention, with my thoughts, perpetuating the feeling/emotional-experience, and trapping myself within the polarity of ‘negative’ (as that which I had tried to ignore/suppress/avoid within myself) and ‘positive’ (as that which I had tried to do/get/find in order to ‘fulfill’ myself and ‘feel better’ about myself) –
But – that was not actual self-fulfillment; instead I was filling myself up with bullshit and all kinds of distractions to get a FEELING of being ‘full’, being ‘complete’, ‘being ‘whole’, being ‘accomplished’, all the while I wasn’t even really here for me to assist and support myself in living self-fulfillment for-real.

 
So – 
I will continue sharing in the context of my process of getting to actual self-fulfillment, which is not something ‘profound’ but simply and practically it’s about who I am within every moment, with every breath, and whether I live every moment to the fullest; whether I fulfill every moment by participating in every moment from the starting point of life/living what’s truly best for me, or whether I fill myself up with bullshit distractions that only have value in my mind but no actual practical value of life support.

I will be redefining the word fulfillment more specifically and in more practical terms within my next blog post wherein, I’ll also write the self-commitment statements and practical corrective applications for me to LIVE.





"Your Existence is Breath by Breath and within that, Every Thought You Have is a choice, Every Word You Speak is a Choice, Every Word You Write is a Choice, Every Point You Act On is a Choice. It Reflects Who You Are."

"When You Are Best for You, You Are Best for All." 








For comprehensive Insight and practical Support please study







as well as




For Insights on Brainwashing read

Anarchists, Mothers & Brainwashing part 2


 
ART by Andrew Gable






























Check out the Desteni I Process Lite –  a FREE course that will assist humanity to end the disaster of a dysfunctional consciousness.


Check out the Equal Money System –  a solution that can be established in this lifetime to end the disaster of a profit driven system.


Check out the Bill of Rights @ the Equal Life Foundation - a comprehensive approach to our Co-existence to ensure the Right to Life, Freedom and Dignity for All.



Study:



MUST-READ on Life and Creation:


For support and participation visit:
http://forum.desteni.org
http://equalmoney.org/forum/


Join us in the Journey to Life !


Free Downloadables @ eqafe
* Quantum Mind Self Awareness - Step 1 and Step 2 <<< MP3 Downloads
* LifeReview - My Life as a Peace Activist <<< MP3 Download
* The Spirituality of the Snail <<< MP3 Download
* Spirituality Under the Microscope - Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* How I was able to Hear the Desteni Message <<< PDF Download - Blog Compilation

* What the FAQ in an Equal Money System – Volume 2 <<< PDF Download
* Hell Spoof <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality
* What makes me Starve in a World of Plenty <<< MP3 Download - Music for Equality



Visit my other Blog sites:
http://breath-expression.blogspot.com
http://equal-money-revolution.blogspot.com
http://EarthGlobalReview.wordpress.com