This post in the context of
and continuing from
Here in this
post I continue sharing my investigations into and my process of understanding about how and why “All Thought is Paranoia”
as well as why and how “the smallest things can have the greatest consequences”.
This is being explained in detail within Blogs in the Journey to Life, and here I will mainly
draw from the Blog series Suicide Paranoia (see bottom for all the links).
Taking the
example of Suicide Paranoia - Suicide being a most extreme consequence that can be utilized to see/understand how such and similar consequences are (self-)created - one can have a look at
“how Consciousness defines itself into Thoughts, thoughts such as for
example “I don’t want to live anymore”, “I can’t go on”, “This life is fucked”
/ “I am fucked”, “I want to die”, “I should never have been born in the first
place”, “Everyone else will be better off without me”, “No-one will even notice
I’m gone” and then into Imaginations where you Imagine ways of killing yourself
/ ending your life – thus, Consciousness defines itself into and as such
thoughts and imaginations from ENERGY. It all starts with an
energy-movement/experience of an emotion that we then entertain/participate
within. The more we access that emotion/energy experience, with the ‘accessing
being’ the more ATTENTION we give it, so – the more we access/the more we give
attention to the energy - the more ‘force’ we give as we substantiate the energy
within/as our consciousness. (…) It all starts with an ENERGY MOVEMENT, and
then one’s awareness gives that energy-movement attention, and one then use the
mind’s platform through, for example, inner self-talk / backchat to start
“defining / WORDING” that energy the MORE you give it attention. Then, it’s
like that energy moves from within the mind and the body into and as WORDS in Consciousness “giving life
to Words as the Words give definition to the ENERGY” and from the words, comes
the associations of images, pictures and scenes in the Mind/Consciousness that will
then come to manifest Imaginations.
And so emerge the creation of one’s own Paranormal Reality in the Mind.
(…) As
children – imagine, you come in as an ‘innocent consciousness’, not knowing what to expect and already as a child
you’re exposed to parents arguing / lashing out, loud voices, explosive behaviour,
bullying from other kids, I mean – shit, here I am in this world, arms wide
open and you’re met with all this shit? With NO comprehension/understanding/tools/education
with regards to how to handle, direct, change the REACTIONS you as a kid
experience in such circumstances and so for most part, ALL such
reactions/internal processes goes into suppression, because as a child, at that
stage, your consciousness is not yet developed enough to transform
reactions/emotions into vocabulary/thought in the Mind. But, the moment when/as
your consciousness/mind develops its vocabulary when you’re introduced to
words, THAT’S when consciousness steps in and starts the process of defining
prominent emotional/feelings experiences that accumulated in your mind/body
during childhood.
So, from
childhood – the first construct of Consciousness is emotional/feeling energy.
We are as children firstly exposed to emotional/feeling reactions/experiences
through which we in our Minds create relationships to our external
world/reality, and then as our vocabulary / imagery develop – our Imagination
and so our Thoughts develop/evolve.”
So, what
one can see and realize here, is that the exact same creation process continues
and evolves with time as we come of age, and it is the same mechanism that
leads to extensive paranoia or suicidal tendencies for instance, when an
emotional/feeling reaction that one has towards situations/people/environment
and one has no idea how to deal with it because clearly, we do not learn such
skills due to the fact that Consciousness has not been and is not yet
understood.
This lack of understanding of how one functions within and as
consciousness often then will lead to an experience of overwhelmingness, and in
an attempt to understand/define the experience, one will –as explained in the
above quote– go into the mind and start thinking about it, looking for ways to
validate and justify the experience, which is often done through blame,
shifting responsibility, forming all kinds of ideas and beliefs about oneself
and others in the mind, and –as explained in the quote – the more one gives
attention to the ENERGY which is the experience as emotional/feeling reactions
and the more one feeds the presence of that ENERGY within the mind with thoughts
and imagination, the more the ENERGY / experience will grow.
So, what
can be seen here as well is that such ‘overwhelming experience’ is in fact
created from a seemingly ‘menial’ reaction as feeling/emotion, which in fact is
not even really related to the present-moment that has triggered the
emotional/feeling reaction, as the only way such reaction can be triggered is
if it already exists within oneself.
And what
already exists within oneself are the main ENERGIES one was exposed to in the
formative years of one’s life, which mostly one has no recollection or remembrance
of.
“So, ALL of
what one had experienced, energetically, as emotions/feelings as a Child: one
cannot remember, yet – those first seven years of your life, is what
determined/defined your emotional/feeling bodies of Consciousness, such as WHY
you react in specific emotions/feelings in moment, the INTENSITY of the
emotion/feeling, what triggers the emotion/feeling and then also of course your
very Thoughts, their content, Imagination – everything that seems so
‘natural/normal’ now, was in fact PROGRAMMED by you in those first seven years
of your life. And ALL of that – ALL the reactions that you experienced, that
now evolved into thoughts/imaginations for example, the origin of that is still
existent within you, but suppressed into and as the Unconscious/Quantum
Mind of your
Mind. You now only live-out the memories of all the
reactions/relationships/definitions you have given to all the
emotional/feelings energies you experienced that now come to manifest in the
form of Thoughts and Imagination, for example.
So, for example
– one as a child was exposed to bullying, and/or you were just exposed to loud
noises you couldn’t understand, or seeing your parents in vocal/behavioural
arguments, and/or being hit – with NO comprehension/understanding of it all,
you inverted/suppressed such reactions, within the primary experience “Why me?”
/ “Did I do something wrong” / “Is something wrong with me” / “What did I do” /
“Why is this happening to me”. Now, obviously, as a child, you cannot word this
or define this and so it becomes an energetic-reactive memory in your
Consciousness. Now you grow up and there’s this lingering feeling ALL the time
within you, and you can’t quite pinpoint it or define it, it’s just ‘there all
of the time’. It feels like a deep-abyss, a depth within you that you’re in,
yet you fear at the same time, it’s like, the energy when you’re in it and you
experience it feels like this emptiness, this nothingness that’s there and it
feels like it literally just sucks everything from your mind/your self into it.
Your mind feels heavy, you feel heavy, and soon as that energy takes over, it’s
like you can see nothing anymore in anything, or anyone – everything and
everyone is just empty, like you don’t even have the energy anymore to WANT to
look at anything/anyone, DO anything, don’t want to think, to breathe.
(…) As
children – we have NO IDEA how to handle this world, life, people, sounds,
words, behaviours and so we SUPPRESS it all. BUT, what is not seen, realised
and understood is that: as you age – EVERYTHING you
experience/manifest/participate in within your Mind/Consciousness STAYS IN THE
MIND and STORES ITSELF IN THE BODY. Thus, the more energy/suppression you go
through from childhood into teenager/adulthood years, the less ‘space’ is
available in your mind-body
relationship for
all that energy to be stored and eventually it becomes SO MUCH, it just takes
over the Mind/Self.
(…) You
initially go into suppression of such reactions to things/people/consequence in
your environment, to the point where the suppression becomes too much and the
energy starts overwhelming the Mind/Self and before one will know it: it seems
like there’s ‘no way out’ – but ‘out’. And individuals do not see, realise and
understand that: what is making you FEEL this way is ENERGY, it’s in the
Mind/Consciousness. You as a beingness/awareness is
only OBSERVING this all and EXPERIENCING this all.
(…) Our
Mind is a ‘interdimensional-physical System’, it is that which contains our
thoughts, emotions, feelings, imagination, self-talk – everything we can
participate within, but not physically ‘touch/dissect’. Our Beingness is that
which is suppressed by the Mind System. One can only reference the existence of
one’s Beingness through the point of Awareness. This means that, the fact that
one is AWARE, the fact that one can SEE and OBSERVE the thoughts/imaginations
you have for example: it is THAT which SEES, which OBSERVE, which is AWARE of
the thoughts, the imaginations. It’s like, if you for a moment look at the
process unfolding in the Mind/Secret Mind when you think/imagine, it’s like
you’re at the same time watching it AND participating in it. If/as YOU were the
thought itself or the imagination itself, you would have then seen/experienced
yourself AS the imagination/thought itself, seeing/experiencing everything
through the eyes of thoughts/imagination. But, we’re not, it’s more like we’re
looking, watching and observing it all unfold in the Mind – thus, proving that,
thoughts/imaginations are ‘separate things’ in our Consciousness/Mind.”
Now the
question would arise, how come we are both the observer and the participant?
And is there perhaps a key within this realization?
Another
question would be: What is the Role of Thinking / Thought processes within all
this?
„THOUGHT is Paranoia
is because: THOUGHT is an evolutionary construct of Consciousness. Meaning:
THOUGHT is something one creates in CONSCIOUSNESS in a relationship between
your beingness-awareness and Consciousness-Energy. Your beingness/awareness,
through giving an energy ATTENTION, is then used by/through your Consciousness
to through that attention, substantiate the energy more, make the energy more
powerful; the more you give it attention, the more you feed it, which gives
Consciousness the power to start evolving that energy into THOUGHTS, into
IMAGINATION – hell, eventually into an entire PERSONALITY system. And so, your
consciousness can create a Paranoia in relation to an ENERGY, one or few ENERGY
experiences that you just didn’t in your awareness understood,
because you did not understand energy experiences / emotions. And so,
Consciousness-itself took Authority / Directive Principle of/as the Energy
Experiences/Emotions and created it into and as THOUGHTS/ Imaginations/self-talk
in the MIND. Using Energy and creating PARANORMAL realities in the mind,
instead of Self in self’s awareness UNDERSTANDING ENERGY and how to practically
DIRECT IT, to not create paranormal realities in the MIND, but learn what it
means to live in/as this REAL WORLD/Reality.
Therefore, as long as one THINK: one is separate from physical reality and
lost in the paranormal reality of Consciousness, of which one is then at the
behest of Consciousness/the Control of Consciousness. Therefore, one must learn to LIVE in this
physical world, BREATH by BREATH – stopping
the Paranoia of the Paranormal that drives us into and as states of
being/experience, all the while missing LIFE, missing ourselves, RIGHT HERE.”
What this
also implies is that, every thought that comes up is in fact preprogrammed, it
exists in the context of an already defined ‘paranormal reality’, created
throughout the first 7 formative years of one’s life, building the foundation
for all the personalities, coping mechanisms, protection and defense systems
etc. that one ends-up living-out as if they were real, as if that is everything
one can ever be.
The
limitation within that and the restriction we impose unto ourselves is self-evident.
Is this really what Life is, what Living is? Mere protection mechanisms?
We do not realize that within those/such Thought process we ‘fight for our
limitations’ because - what are we actually protecting ourselves from? From Life?! From
Living?!
In my next
Blog post I will walk through and share a self-forgiveness process in relation to the
creation of Paranoia / Thought / Consciousness which is in fact Mind-Control from the Inside
out, all based on Fear/inferiority and lack of Understanding about what Consciousness
is and how it functions within and as ourselves...
Stay tuned.
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