579 | Re-igniting my Passion & Daring to Be Myself

Continuing from the previous two posts
A further interesting aspect that opened up within it all has been: daring to be myself.
What does that even mean?
Well for one it’s about how we tend to form and mold our self-image and behavior around our ideas of what is expected of us – who we’re supposed to be.
This brings along things like self suppression, holding self back, or even depression and more physical consequences. Imagine spending your life trying to be something, trying to be someone. This is mostly what life has become. Hardly do we receive or even perceive the opportunity to really get to know ourselves, our nature, our strengths and weaknesses, our interests, our natural talents and skills, or even our roots and history, which whether we like it or not do define us or at least leave a mark in forming 'who we are'.
Daring to be myself has thus a lot to do with opening myself up to the entirety of my life and my life experience and looking at everything, even that which hurts, even regrets and judgments and basically any polarities, and standing in self honesty, so as to be able to determine who I want to be.
But even this ‘who I want to be’ is then based on who I am – who I really am and know I can be, in terms of my full potential as life. So we are not talking about creating an idea or picture in one’s mind here, which one then tries to ‘fulfill’. No. In fact, that is what the entire world system gets us to do already – this is the ‘old way’, the preprogrammed way. Now we need a ‘new program’, a new world, a new way of life, for real. And for all. What we need is Awareness as life – that’s why you’ll hear more and more: “we need to wake up”.
That’s what waking up means. Realizing that: we are here, and we have been asleep; we have been hypnotized and have even become master hypnotizers ourselves, lol, while we keep on playing the game,  the game that we call life.
I take it most will agree that life is not a game, so yes, it’s time to stop the game and redefine life, it’s time to dare get real – individually and collectively.
What is important to you, and why?
What is of importance for humanity on earth?
And could it be the answer to both questions is of similar nature?


And just to round up the point of the word 'Daring'; I use the word simply because I found it takes courage...but especially because I find that we do not even notice how we are 'not ourselves', how we tend to keep ourselves limited or distracted or stuck or holding back...
So, which also brings us back to the word and expression of Passion, because when I am genuine and present in the moment, here, I can be passionate about whatever is relevant in the context of the moment and about expressing and sharing who I am in relation to everything/everyone else involved. I can also be passionate about principles that truly resonate with who I am, which I can then express in my own individualized or unique way, such as truth, integrity, equality, support.

So, even with it being rather about being than daring, the Being itself -to Be, to Live, to be Alive and Awake- does sometimes require some daring, lol, some courage, where we have to move ourselves through layers of conditioning, and push ourselves beyond our accepted limitations.

We're gonna have to do that as Humanity as well- as One, as a collective, as life on earth...

578 | Reigniting my Passion & Making Decisions – part 2

I’m continuing from my previous post

What I found was that the more I allowed myself to ‘come down to’ self honesty, the more I realized that the way I’d been making my decisions hadn’t been as self determined as it could have been – meaning: where instead of taking into consideration who I am, I was rather taking into consideration who I’m supposed to be. This is bluntly put, just so you get my drift.

So then I found layers of expectations and projections, all in picture form, of how I was looking at myself and how I was seeing my life, within that also many self definitions, boiling down to the realization that, cool, I am getting to Ground Zero, the ground zero of me, and I can now really look at who I am and what defines me. And most importantly the question: who will I define myself? Who am I when everything else fall away.

Now, with grounding myself into and with self honesty – I could see more clearly. I could see where past decisions were coming from and I could see that I now wanted to clear and ground my starting point ‘back to self’.

Once I started doing that – and interestingly enough it was again and again through the experience of ‘disappointment’ involving “other people” that I was ‘forced’ to let the projection go and bring the point back to myself to see what that ‘disappointment’ was actually showing me about ME – once I started doing that, that was where I started reigniting my passion, the spark of life that I am.
What does it mean to LIVE?

Do you happen to know people who will do anything and everything “for others” and then go into a state of self-victimization when “others” do not reciprocate?
It’s quite disgusting in a way, and I can say that because I grew up with a mother like this, lol. But what’s worse is, I had found the very same pattern existing within me in different manifestations. Is that really living? Is that really contributing to life? Or is it rather a point of self abdication, where one’s one value and worth is made dependent on ‘how others respond’, thus validation, acceptance, approval is sought out from the outside, while the relationship with self as the source deteriorates.
I have written about the processes that opened up for me in this context in my posts on Overprotectiveness, which you can reference here

Now back to the initial point – PASSION – what is that, where is it, and why is it not here – if you’re asking yourself these questions then what you need is to ground yourself with where you’re at and allow yourself to be honest with yourself.

577 | Re-igniting my Passion & Making Decisions

I made an interesting discovery within this past year.
I’ve had to make several important decisions and I have learned a lot. It’s been interesting and it’s been tough, especially with things moving faster, as our reality accelerates. It’s as if time had been compounding, and all the various aspects and dimensions of my life been opening up for me to face, understand, deal with and direct.
Reigniting my passion had come along with an interesting process that I’d been walking, namely that of having to make some important decisions on several different matters.
What I found was that the severity of the decisions pushed me to self honesty. Severity meaning, I could see that my decisions, whatever they would be, would have a considerable outflow/consequence for my future.
This is a good time to be reminded of the definition / nature of what consequence is: and that is simply the outflow and playout of decisions we make. Therefore it is good to be aware of who we are in every moment, as even the small decisions we make in moments define us, and have accumulative outflows.
What we create is who we are. We always face ourselves. Which is where lies both the tragedy and the hope, lol, that is – both the problem and the solution. I hate to say it but here we are again with the chicken and egg question.
Life continues with or without us. Will we be consciousness machines that follow a preprogrammed path to self destruction – or will we be living beings that birth themselves and a new world from the physical, from that which is here as accepted and allowed – into an existence of truth, of empowerment, of cooperation, of transparency, of respect and support, of freedom and peace, of LIFE.
It is not life evolving through us, it is us reconnecting to life as the one creative force we all have in common.
Start with the air we breathe, the earth we walk on, the food we eat; the relationships we entertain, the people in our lives, the environment we live in.
Start with yourself, in asking yourself the question: WHY am I doing what I’m doing? What is my passion in life? Is it something that supports and enhances not only my life but also that of others? Is it something that opens doors, encourages reflection, ignites insight? Is it something I do because it’s who I am?
If yes – excellent – you are walking your life in real-time, contributing in real space-time to the betterment of life on earth. Reach out and share yourself – you are the gift you carry with you wherever you go.
If not  – you know you are not at ease, you aren’t living your full potential, you haven’t yet truly arrived: at your ground level, yourself.
Don’t step into the trap when the mind tempts you into self-judgment. Rather embrace it in self honesty, and pick yourself up right where you’re at.
You will find that in doing so, you support yourself to ask the real questions, and to see the real answers. The real answers meaning: the ones coming from the truth of yourself, in terms of; why I’m doing what I’m doing – or it could be: why I’m not doing what I know I should be doing.
Whenever it comes to making decisions, I’ve learned to ask myself: From what starting-point am I making this decision? And in terms of clearing/clarifying your starting-point you can ask questions like: ‘what’ is making my decision? What is my decision based on? Do I think/feel that when making this decision I will be a ‘good person’ or be ‘doing the right thing’? Am I making this decision to not disappoint “others”? Am I making this decision because I fear making another decision? These are some examples of what you can come up with in terms of getting to that honesty with yourself that will allow you to make ‘best decisions’ based on seeing the whole picture and being able to take everything/everyone into consideration.
I will continue in my next post and share more about the point of PASSION