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Dienstag, 4. Juni 2013

399 | Paranoia is like a ‘self-fulfilling prophecy’ - But who fills the cup?

This post in the context of

391 | Human Consciousness exists in Paranoia

392 | Human Consciousness exists in Paranoia - part 2

and continuing from

398 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh - part 2
397 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh
396 | The Creation Process of Paranoia Begins in the MEnial
395 | Human Paranoia Keeps History Repeating – How to Stop
394 | The Paranoia of “I don’t want to become like my Parents”

Yes, so, realizing that any obsession/paranoia about anything starts at a small, menial, seemingly unimportant level, and grows the more we feed it with attention, I looked at the interesting point that this point is literally like a self-fulfilling prophecy.

The word self-fulfilling is quite operative here, and I in fact imagined how the thoughts that come-up in one’s mind to ‘validate’ or ‘justify’ an emotional/feeling reaction one had towards a situation/person/word/event in a moment literally start filling up one’s mind/consciousness until it’s full, and voilà, the obsessed becomes possessed and the point that one has been giving attention to ‘fulfills itself’ and ‘becomes real’ within one’s consciousness, to such an extent that the emotional/feeling experience becomes overwhelming and physically noticeable, which goes to show how we allow mental-states and consciousness-systems to literally fulfill as in occupy as in possess our body experience and physical behavior.

(To understand the nitty-gritty of the creation process of such ‘state of mind’ that becomes a state of being wherein one is literally occupied by and preoccupied with this ONE single point that one had allowed to take all one’s attention and focus: please read my previous blog posts that I reference at the beginning of this post as well as the links at the bottom!)

Now –

Back to the word self-fulfilling, which is the word fulfillment.

I have walked through some self-forgiveness points on this one, speaking the words out loud as I opened-up the point for myself to see, and I'd like to write out and share the essence of that in this post here:

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to perceive, experience and define my life as ‘empty’, not only because I had not ‘achieved’ what in the world/system is seen as ‘success’, but also because this emotional/feeling experience is something that is like just ‘there’ within me since I was a child.

Therefore I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed this/such definition for myself and my life without investigating and understanding where this/such feeling comes from and whether it is in fact valid.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to keep myself ‘busy’ and ‘doing’ things, because I had wanted to avoid and ignore this feeling of ‘emptiness’, as I had charged it with a ‘negative’ judgment and within that had formed a ‘fear of emptiness’ –

which, looking back at the Blog posts I wrote in the past weeks wherein I walked through the points of self-worth and value, I realize that I had given the perception/feeling/emotional-experience of ‘emptiness’ a ‘negative value’, and because I had accepted this experience as me, as my life, as who I am – I had within that sabotaged my self-worth and disregarded my value as life.

What I saw and realized is how I kept myself ‘full’ by filling myself with ‘stuff to do’ and ‘stuff to think about’, eating, drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes, all this stuff and everything I did, even relationships in my life – was in a way always to done to ‘fill’ the ‘emptiness’ –

Therefore within this, I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that not only the ‘emptiness’ is not real (it is only real as long as I give it ‘value’ and ‘attention’ and allow it to define who I am) – but also the various ways that I had attempted to full-fill myself were not real.

I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that, within that negative definition of myself/my life as ‘empty’ and the ‘fear of emptiness’ which would also be the fear of being ‘worthless’ and my life being without ‘meaning’ (which obviously is all bullshit, because in the end I am the one that determines, one way or another, the meaning and value of my life, namely through what and how I live it), and within attempting to full-fill myself through values of the mind – I had in fact not been here for myself, I had not given myself to chance, the opportunity, the time and the space to be here for me, to care for me, to occupy the space I breathe and simply be here, without needing/wanting/desiring or requiring anything to keep me preoccupied.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to create within myself a resistance towards simply being here, slowing down, being here for myself, and caring for myself; wherein I’ll often just rush through my day to do the things I gotta do, and I’ll often find myself at the end of the day quite unhappy because I realize I could have taken some moments to rest, to slow down, to bring my awareness back here within and as my physical body, expand my physical movement or stretch – and when I look at the amount of time I spend ‘doing’ and the amount of time I spend with myself for myself to care for myself as a physical being, I see that I could in fact give myself more of myself, I could practically care for myself more – but I tend to get so absorbed within what it is that I’m doing at any given moment, that sometimes hours will pass before I realize that hey, I must now take a break, take a walk, change the environment, move myself.

What I realize is that this tendency is in fact the result of preoccupying myself and not valuing myself /not giving myself the care I require – all out of this negative-definition of perceived ‘emptiness’ that I had accepted about me and my life and which I created a resistance towards and thus preoccupied myself to not have to face it.

So here I am now realizing this is not living, and that I am in fact quite capable of being here for me, and caring for me, giving myself and my life the value that it’s worth, which the value of life. If I had a child, how would I care for my child? That is how I must care for myself, as a physical being, making sure that I meet my physical requirements to within that also honor this physical body that allows me to exist and experience myself in this world here on earth.

I forgive myself that I hadn’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that this very feeling/emotional-experience of/as ‘emptiness’ has in fact been a point of paranoia within my mind, where out of this/such feeling I formed all kinds of ideas about myself and my world, about my life and the value of it, and obviously throughout the years this point was being fed with my attention, with my thoughts, perpetuating the feeling/emotional-experience, and trapping myself within the polarity of ‘negative’ (as that which I had tried to ignore/suppress/avoid within myself) and ‘positive’ (as that which I had tried to do/get/find in order to ‘fulfill’ myself and ‘feel better’ about myself) –

But – that was not actual self-fulfillment; instead I was filling myself up with bullshit and all kinds of distractions to get a FEELING of being ‘full’, being ‘complete’, ‘being ‘whole’, being ‘accomplished’, all the while I wasn’t even really here for me to assist and support myself in living self-fulfillment for-real.

So –

I will continue sharing in the context of my process of getting to actual self-fulfillment, which is not something ‘profound’ but simply and practically it’s about who I am within every moment, with every breath, and whether I live every moment to the fullest; whether I fulfill every moment by participating in every moment from the starting point of life/living what’s truly best for me, or whether I fill myself up with bullshit distractions that only have value in my mind but no actual practical value of life support.

I will be redefining the word fulfillment more specifically and in more practical terms within my next blog post wherein, I’ll also write the self-commitment statements and practical corrective applications for me to LIVE.

"Your Existence is Breath by Breath and within that, Every Thought You Have is a choice, Every Word You Speak is a Choice, Every Word You Write is a Choice, Every Point You Act On is a Choice. It Reflects Who You Are."

"When You Are Best for You, You Are Best for All."

- Bernard Poolman

For comprehensive Insight and practical Support please study

Paranoia – The Home of Human Reason – part 1

Paranoia – The Home of Human Reason – part 2

Paranoia and Stopping the Mind

The Lovey Paranoia

Thinking is for Losers

as well as

Suicide Paranoia - 1 - What is Paranoia?

Suicide Paranoia - 2 - How/Why Thought Is (and creates) Paranoia

Suicide Paranoia - 3 - The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia - Energy Dimension I.

Suicide Paranoia - 4 - The Creation Process of Suicide Paranoia - Energy Dimension II.

For Insights on Brainwashing read

Motherhood and Brainwashing

Brainwashing - The Secret History

Anarchists, Mothers & Brainwashing part 1

Anarchists, Mothers & Brainwashing part 2

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Montag, 3. Juni 2013

398 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh - part 2

…Essentially, Paranoia is the process of 'losing touch with reality' as you entertain the paranormal / paraNOISE of/as the Mind and then use that to define reality, which really misconstrues reality COMPLETELY…

This post in the context of

391 | Human Consciousness exists in Paranoia

392 | Human Consciousness exists in Paranoia - part 2

and continuing from

397 | Self-Forgiveness to Reverse-Engineer the Paranoia of Consciousness into Nothingness and Start Afresh
396 | The Creation Process of Paranoia Begins in the MEnial
395 | Human Paranoia Keeps History Repeating – How to Stop
394 | The Paranoia of “I don’t want to become like my Parents”

From my previous post:

Self-Forgiveness is the process of seeing, realizing and understanding What one has created within and as oneself and How; realizing within this that since the programming of the consciousness the became the Self took place through one’s own acceptance and allowance and the tacit/implied definitions that had been accepted in unawareness and in ignorance of the consequences thereof on Life as oneself and thus also on Life as a Whole – one is, once such creation processes have been made conscious/aware of and taken responsibility for, equally able to stop/correct the programming and align one’s self interest to the interest of life in self-honesty and practical common sense.

Thus –

Self-Forgiveness is the process of deprogramming = forgiving and letting go of the past conditions that created the Self to be less than Life, less than what one really is and can be;

And the Self-Corrective Commitments is the reprogramming = the new script one scripts for oneself in awareness as life to live / apply / be that which is Best for Self and thus equally Best for All Life in oneness and equality;

Within this Changing both the Self and consequently self’s relationships/world/society/system to be something that is worthy of Life, something that interacts and participates in Dignity, Care and Respect for Life, giving as one would like to receive, thus making it possible to manifest an existence where All Life is free and where we are no longer subject to our own accepted fear/inferiority, where we no longer accept an existence that is less than life, but instead assist and support ourselves and each-other to live and create ourselves and our world to the fullest potential, as Life.

Self-Forgiveness is thus in essence equal to Self-Responsibility, as one does not wait ‘hope’ or ‘beg’ for forgiveness, but is actually taking the responsibility to forgive oneself, change oneself, and move on – within this also enabling an existence of No gods, No masters, No slaves.

So -

let’s have a look at some self forgiveness points that one can take on to walk a committed process of self-correction and actual change:

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed any thought coming up within me to exist through my acceptance and allowance without investigating where it comes from and why it exists – because if I would investigate Why it exists I can see that every thought that comes-up in the mind in an automatic seemingly ‘plausible’ manner serves the purpose of validating/’justifying’ an emotional/feeling experience, so that one then can say/think “I feel this way because of this/them” and within that one misses the chance to a) take responsibility for one’s own experience and b) direct oneself in that moment to not give-in to the emotional/feeling experience which, if accepted and allowed, will slowly but surely grow bigger in intensity, to the extent that one’s entire life can be dominated by one energetic experience, within that limiting not only one’s experience of oneself but also who one is and can be.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by allowing myself to be preoccupied and taken-over by a thought/emotional/feeling reaction/experience, I am in fact implying that I am less than that thought/emotional/feeling reaction/experience, and that would be equal to committing ‘suicide’ because within such submission one is in fact abdicating one’s self-directive authority in life and thus also all opportunity to create oneself as something/someone that is worthy of life in fact = caring, considering and regarding LIFE, thus oneself AND others in equality and oneness, instead of being preoccupied by and literally buried within one’s own thoughts and emotional-/feeling reactions/experiences.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to meticulously apply the common sense application of ‘ investigating all things and keeping what is good’, what is ‘good’ meaning what supports LIFE, and to do that also with every single thought and emotional-/feeling reaction/experience that comes-up within me seemingly out of no-where – and yet I see and realize that upon investigating and tracing back any thought or emotional-/feeling reaction/experience one is able to find what it is that such ‘thing’ stands-for and represents as well as what that ‘thing’ would make one into if one would accept and allow its existence through further thinking, ‘validation’ and ‘justification’ in the mind.

Therefore I commit myself to assist and support myself to no longer accept myself to simply submit to a thought or an emotional/feeling reaction/experience – and to no longer accept or allow myself to think and believe that a thought or an emotional/feeling reaction/experience is ‘more than’ me.

I commit myself to make sure that I inspect every single thought or emotional/feeling reaction/experience that presents itself within me, no matter how ‘small’ or seemingly ‘ insignificant’, to make sure that what exists in my mind is simply a replica of my physical world and reality –

which means that I allow no judgment, positive or negative, to exist within me about something or someone, and that I make sure that my reality approach in every moment is based on common sense reality assessment and not on judgments, opinions, assumptions, fears or desires; as I realize that such ‘things’ are preprogrammed filters through which I would be looking at my world based on my conditioned consciousness design and within that I would not be allowing myself to see things for what they are.

I commit myself to, when and as a thought or an emotional/feeling reaction/experience comes-up within me ‘forcibly’, overwhelming me and seeking to occupy my awareness – stop and breathe, and remind myself that by submitting to such ‘experience’ I would not only be abdicating my directive authority but I would be in fact abdicating my right to life.

I see, realize and understand that the ‘ intensity’ of a thought or an emotional/feeling reaction/experience is related to how much/how often I have already in the past fed such ‘thing’ by giving it attention, thinking about it or imagining stuff in my mind that would ‘validate’ or ‘justify’ the thoughts and/or emotional/feeling reactions/experiences.

Therefore I no longer accept or allow myself to fall in the trap of “it’s so overwhelming”, and I instead will myself to Breathe and ‘bring myself back here’, to be the directive authority of me and my awareness, making sure that I determine in self-honesty what I accept and allow within me and what I do not accept or allow within me, in other words that I in fact determine what I will be/live/experience and what I will not accept myself to be/live/experience.

I commit myself to assist and support myself in my process of moving myself beyond my conditioned consciousness design, beyond the fears and desires of the consciousness programs that I had accepted to be ‘who I am’, and to live/walk every moment with every breath in such a way that I no longer accept anything less than who I know I am and can be.

To assist and support myself in the practical living application of this process, I use the tools of slowing-down and walking in awareness as breath; making sure that what ‘occupies’ me is who I really am: a physical living being, breathing and participating in this physical reality, seeing things for what they are based on practical common sense assessment in self-honesty.

Thus, anything that comes-up within me that is ‘more than’ the physical reality of myself and my world – eg. judgments, assumptions, fears, desires, any reactions whatsoever – I make sure to accordingly direct and correct, aligning my inner reality to life as oneness and equality, which in time will equally align my outer reality to be what is Best for All: supporting, considering and caring for LIFE as who we all really are beyond the paranoia of the mental realms that separate us from ourselves and each-other.

I see and realize that when I align my self-interest to be the interest of life, I will WILL myself to move beyond the limitations of self-interest that is conditioned through the fears & desires I have systematically adopted throughout my life, and I will WILL myself to in every moment with every breath make sure that my every thought, word and deed is always in the interest of life.

I see and realize that this would in time result to a self-expression that is beyond the codes of the matrix, no longer bound to things like ‘being liked’ or ‘accepted’; and therefore I commit myself to assist and support myself in the process of letting go of any and all points of paranoia in my mind, and accordingly let go of my conditioned self-definitions of ‘superiority’ and ‘ inferiority’ so that I may live and expand myself in self-expression as life towards what I know is/can be my fullest potential – within this I’d be supporting not only myself but everyone that crosses my way.

I commit myself to reinforce my dedication to self-honesty and thus to assist and support myself to live and be what is Best for Me, as who I really am as life, as I realize that within that I’d be living and doing what is Best for All.

Your Existence is Breath by Breath and within that, Every Thought You Have is a choice, Every Word You Speak is a Choice, Every Word You Write is a Choice, Every Point You Act On is a Choice. It Reflects Who You Are.

To have a look at some specific self-forgiveness processes that I’ve walked in relation to specific mind patterns and mental construct, please see the links here

and also reference my blog posts from