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Donnerstag, 14. Juni 2012

Day 38: Give me more, more, more Energy



I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed an existence where we exist only for 'more'; where all our actions, thoughts, words are set to get us 'somewhere', where we miss the moment that is Here by following the mind that's trying to 'get somewhere', 'get something' - more, more, and more.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed an existence where we create relationships only to get that 'something more' - all the while we miss ourselves, we fail to be Here for real as complete living beings, equal and one with the physical reality that is ourselves.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed an existence where we do not live self-honesty, because we do not have an actual relationship with ourselves other the one that is dictated and driven through the backchat in our mind, where we THINK things ABOUT ourselves and others, but we do not allow ourselves to develop self-intimacy, self-acceptance, self-equality, to get to know who we really are.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed a society where we are so bombarded with images and concepts of 'happiness', 'love', 'fulfilment', that we are always in a pursuit to make such images and concepts ‘real’ - but we can't, because we are trying to make something ‘real’ in separation from ourselves. We are only building illusions and are deluding ourselves into alternate realities, projections of our desires and expectations that are not even ours: but programmed and conditioned into a personality with certain backchat-thoughts as a framework based on which we then approach our world - to get that ‘something’ that will apparently ‘fulfil’ us, and within that we only fill ourselves up with energetic illusions, more, and more, and more.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed an education system that develops us into competitors striving to conquer the world through our 'ascension' in all kinds of hierarchies - whether it is the job, the peers, the money, the sex, the image, the 'power'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed the brainwashing of self based on concepts of 'power' that place power more than life –

thus we have a money-system that places money more than life, a religion-system that places god more than life, a production-system that places profit before life, a science-system that places knowledge before life, a technology-system that places information before life, an education-system that places performance before life, a family-system that places competition before life, a media-systems that places idols, images and sensationalism before life;

and a society that places the ‘values’ of these systems before life, resulting to a society of individualized conquerors, where we'll divide to conquer what we can get, to get that ‘sensation’, while we exist in fear of each-other, jealousy and greed, in constant comparison and competition, unless we have 'found' the fellow preys that will validate our delusions as we validate theirs, and then we'll fake happiness and fulfilment because our life goes by 'our rules', but in fact it is the rules we are subjecting and limiting ourselves to: as the conditions we place for our conditioned 'reality' to continue existing as if everything is 'okay' and no change is required.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the conditions we place unto others: are the conditions we tacitly imply for ourselves equally –
yet we do not see the self-compromise because we do not look in self-honesty; we only look through the 'I' of the conditioned self-consciousness and its wants, needs, desires designed as a system by the system to keep us 'comfortably numb'.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create 'rules' and 'conditions' for my happiness, my fulfilment, my existence - and within this I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to imprison myself within my own rules and suppress myself under my own conditions; allowing my own limitation through the concepts and ideas I have accepted in my mind ABOUT myself and ABOUT happiness, fulfilment, existence.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to let go of the accepted concepts and ideas of happiness and fulfilment, let go of the rules and conditions I've placed upon my existence - and dis-cover self-fulfilment within who I am, within what I GIVE, within giving me to me and living in a way that establishes self-fulfilment rooted in self-honesty, self-intimacy, self-discovery.

If we can see that what we call ‘life’ cannot really be what life is about - then we must be willing to let go of everything that is part of the matrix of what we call ‘life’ and be willing to discover ourselves from scratch; from the simplest things like breathing, touching, tasting, communicating.

I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed an existence where we try to communicate with our world through the mind, through programmed and conditioned pathways of information wrapped in labelled boxes of knowledge with a price-tag; within this communicating only about knowledge, about information, about labels and values in separation from ourselves as life -

instead of establishing genuine communication with ourselves to begin with: who am I as a physical body, who am I as breath, do I breathe with my body or do I allow an automated existence while I play god in the mind, imposing the wants and desires and fears of the mind onto the physical and thus instead of using the physical to communicate and interact with ourselves and our world: we abuse the physical to 'get what we want', to 'get more', and more, and more.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that the mind ALWAYS wants 'more' - it is the nature of the mind to never be content, never be Here, but to always run around in circles searching, wanting, desiring, looking for: "something" out there somewhere - something that will give it more 'value', more 'power', more 'validation'. It is the survival-tactic of the mind to preserve itself as a persona, an idea, an image, a personality, a role in this game we call 'life' - a game where millions of lives are sacrificed in the name of profit, self-interest, greed.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that we never learned to nurture and sustain ourselves as physical bodies, because we have instead been taught to feed the mind: through patterns of thoughts, backchat, pictures and words, as we create alternate realities through projections of energetic experiences of polarity;
and the mind feeds on all the energy it can get, and keeps generating friction bringing up the same loops of bipolar thoughts, re-creating beliefs and experiences over and over again: and we still buy into, we 'feel' it, we follow it, we are overpowered by it, we are driven and directed by it, as we have given away all our authority to the mind to get us 'forward', and in this: we are possessed by an automated pilot that has only one thing in mind: MORE for ME.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see, realize and understand that instead of actually moving forward, we loop within our quest FORreWARd – REWARD - creating only WAR within and without; as we seek our 'evolution' through the mind, through technology, through depictions of reality, never getting to know the actual reality that is Here as ourselves to begin with.

I forgive myself that I haven’t allowed myself to see that we have not in fact brought forth any evolution, any transformation, and that the evolution of mankind is but a mutation where nothing has in fact changed in essence; whereby we don’t even understand energy, yet we follow its transformations from the 'positive' to the 'negative' in infinite loops, abdicating ourselves to the mercy of the energetic polarity forces within (mind consciousness) and without (money system), getting ourselves into more and more intense spirals of war and peace, love and hate, dominion and slavery.



I commit myself to investigating the polarity forces I have subjected myself to as I've followed the backchat and energetic experiences emerging from the mind as program - so that I may understand the program, stand equal to and one with the program I have become, and start using the mind in self-honesty as self-support, in realizing all that which is Not life, acknowledging where I have NOT been the directive power of me, and giving that authority back to myself to self-honestly determine a directive that will redeem life as myself and all that is Here.

I commit myself to showing how our world is subject to polarity forces we have created through the mental and imposed onto the physical, manifesting inequality and exploitation, disregarding the value of life, betraying life for 'energy', for the feeling of 'more', when we haven't even accepted ourselves Here, we haven't recognized ourselves as Life, we have only been existing within and as a matrix of words, pictures and polarity-energetics, that has been our mind-control, equal to and one with the money-system as world-system we have manifested as a reflection of ourselves:

as money is the energy everyone is trying to get 'more' of without, and 'value' is the energy everyone is trying to get 'more' of within.

I commit myself to bringing forth an existence, starting with myself, where we realize the value of life as who we are, and thus form our ways of life in honor of life as the actual value - as equality and oneness - to no longer accept or allow the separation of life and exploitation of substance for 'energy', because we are only consuming ourselves and each-other in a game where there can be no winners.

I commit myself to showing that a win-win system for all life is possible and simplistic, but it requires us to stop the game and re-educate ourselves, re-evaluate our 'values', learn from our mistakes and let go of the want /need /desire to control and dominate and abuse life in the name of self-interest /profit / 'power'.

I commit myself to showing that we have created false 'values' and false concepts of 'power' in this world, which we believe are 'infinite' in spite of the evidence that that is not so, shown by death, at the moment of which the personality, the possessions, the concepts no more exist and the body returns to its equality with earth, with it all our memories gone with the physical- and what remains of the personality is but a picture in the minds of the loved ones. Dust to dust.


I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to consider the symbolism depicted in the creation of man from the dust of the earth and the fact that man returns to the dust of the earth; and that if god created man in his image and likeness from the physical – then why does man not honor the physical as the substance we are all made of? Why does man not create with the physical a creation that will support all physical bodies including our planet, but only abuse the physical to create the illusions of the mind?

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if we place the mind as god - then we are its slaves.

I forgive myself that I haven't allowed myself to see, realize and understand that in order to transcend the mind, to transform the mind into a tool of life-support: we have to understand the mind, how it functions and operates, how we exist through the mind and the implications of existing through the mind.

And that equally to transcend the money-system and transform money into a tool of actual life-support: we have to understand the laws and silent agreements /acceptances /allowances through which we have manifested the current money-system over time, how it operates and the implications of such a system as the consequences for this world, this existence.


I commit myself to never stop exposing the atrocity of the system we have accepted and allowed and the deception on which it is based - wherefrom we are manifesting only an illusion of 'life', betraying life in the name of profit, exploiting the very hand that feeds us because we want more and more and more, never considering ourselves in the context of the whole as a physical universe but only our self-interest in the mind-bubble we exist as.

I commit myself to bursting all my bubbles and getting myself Here, equal and one with this physical reality, my body, and every body else - so that I may self-realize life as what is REAL in fact.

I commit myself to getting to know and understand the physical through lifting the veils of the mind, stopping the ingrained mind-control through self-honesty and self-forgiveness, and establishing a self-honest communication with myself, studying cause and effect, and walking breath by breath in self-respect, until every thought, word and deed is aligned with my decision to stand for life, stand as life, and be the creator of myself in self-dignity – so that we may manifest an existence of dignity and respect for life, as it should have been from the beginning.

I commit myself to investigating and stopping all points where 'I am found wanting', all points where I see myself 'wanting more', all points where I have separated myself from the value of life, all points where I've abdicated my authority to the mind to tell me what I 'want', 'need' and 'desire' and what I must 'fear' - so that I may free myself from the conditioned mind-control that keeps me limited to a only a persona, an image, a picture in a picture-world; so that I may make myself REAL as life.

When and as I see myself going into 'wanting more' or following an energetic experience in the hope/need/desire to 'get more' and 'be more' and 'have more': I stop and I breathe, and I remind myself of the illusion of the mind in its constant and never-ending quest for something to feed on.

I commit myself to nurturing myself as life through self-honesty, self-intimacy, self-acceptance; and through slowing down to the breath, walking breath by breath and not rushing into the mind, establishing an actual relationship of self-honesty with myself so that I may give me to me, so that I may give life to me, so that I may give myself the right to life and birth myself as life from the physical, to LIVE -

and from here to establish our relationships of self-honesty and self-support, so that we may get to know ourselves and our world as the mind we have become, to understand our creation, acknowledge the consequences of inequality, separation and the infinite desire for ‘more’, and stand-up to transform our existence into LIFE, in equality and oneness so that we no longer compromise life as ourselves and our existence.

I commit myself to bringing forth a new system of equality that will allow all human beings to do exactly that, to no longer be preoccupied with competition, survival, and the quest for the false 'values' we buy into within the current consumerism system –

a new system that will give us all the time, the freedom and the support to deal with what really matters, to deal with the matters at hand, which is the human psyche and its creation that allows for half the world to exist in suffering and lack while we exploit the natural resources of our planet that are given unconditionally for the nurturing of all living beings if it weren’t for the dictatorship of the mind that has monopolized the distribution of resources, goods and knowledge to serve the false concepts of 'power' and 'value' as promulgated in this world system.

I commit myself to not stop until all life is free and the systems we create to manage us do so in a way that support all life equally.




 



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Day 36: Debunking that One Point of 'Higher Energy' | Has God become Consumer??


So in previous blog posts I looked at the points of Hoping and Waiting, Fear of Change, as well as how Wants emerge from our self-consciousness as a picture in a picture-world, where words and pictures are connected to energetic experiences and so we define our world and ourselves in polarities between 'positive' and 'negative', ‘want’ and ‘need’, forever trapped between desires and fears, actually the projections thereof, while we miss the actuality of reality and abdicate our authority of self-determination and self-responsibility.

Today I listened to two Life Review interviews which I suggest everyone dealing with or looking at relationships Hear (for Links see bottom), and through the interviews I saw further aspects that I had not considered thus far; especially and specifically in relation to the word 'Care'.

While I did look at how to practically live self-care, bringing the point back to self to stop the separation I have manifested toward the word and experience of 'Care' - what I had not applied thus far was the realization that Living is here in every moment. Therefore it is not about creating a new 'concept' of 'Care' which then gets projected into the future, manifesting again separation - but about Living Care in the small things, in every moment, Here.

It can be small things from how I breathe, how I hold my posture, how I relax within my physical body, how I eat, the company I keep to myself, my practical self-application of for instance stopping thoughts of self-doubt or stopping myself from into back-chat about what I still require to do, change, stop, transform; so that I may instead Be Here in every moment, living breath by breath, Giving me back to me, Giving me the gift of life in every breath.

I even noticed how I myself was through this point as the want /need /desire for care and the experience of being cared for: possessed within my mind, and not in a position to actually care for another the way I would like to be cared for.

This goes to show the possessive nature of the mind consciousness where it's all about 'getting' and 'receiving' and 'having' and in essence 'possessing' that which we separate ourselves from and then look for it to be given to us from others; wherein in the end, instead of me possessing or having or getting anything, I become possessed with this one point - which, looking at it now, I can see has been determining my entire existence since I can remember. And I have accepted myself to define myself through this point so extensively, that I've allowed this one point to infiltrate and determine all aspects of my life, my decisions, my choices, and foremost: my relationship with myself.


An important point within this whole pattern, aspects of which I described and investigated in previous blogs (see hyperlinks top paragraph) is the point of energy and the polarity friction as the mental and emotional energetic experiences and value-judgments through which we perceive and define our world and ourselves.

If we look at this point of the Want, Need, Desire to be 'cared for' and experience 'care': it has a 'positive' charge to it. This however implies that for me to want /need /desire the perceived 'positive', I have perceived me here as the 'negative' thereof.

This creates a loop, literally like an infinity symbol, within which self is trapped in a carousel of energetic ups and downs, none of which actually real, substantial, or related to the actuality of the physical reality, but defined and played-out within the mind, creating an alternate reality which becomes the experience of oneself and the filter through which one will approach one’s reality, with the result that self never gets to the realization of that point of for instance Care from a starting-point of equality and oneness with the actual living application of the word.
Who am I within and as Care?
How do I practically define Care?
How do I care for me?
How do I care for life?
How do I care for others?
What does that practically, physically entail?

In the same way, within realizing that one has defined Care within a 'feeling' as a projected 'positive'-charge of an idea: one is able to ask oneself:
What is that feeling I am searching for really?
Where did I see it, witness it, observe and define it?
Why does this ‘feeling’ have a ‘negative’ counterpart?
Is it real or is it only an idea, an image, a Hollywood concept?
Will I ever be able to 'have' and 'maintain' such 'feeling'?
What is the nature of feelings?
Why does 'feeling' exist within and as polarity?
Why and how is 'feeling' connected to the mental?
What does 'feeling' through the mental imply?
What have I missed?
When is feeling real?

The answers are often more simplistic than expected, because it is the mind that is complex - it has to be, because it has to create all that reasoning, justifications, excuses, filters, perceptions, veils to make sure it gets to hold on to and 'possess' that one point of Want /Need /Desire, because that is how friction within self is created, through constantly thinking and turning that one point around within the mind, and the friction keeps the energy running, up and down and up and down: and that friction is what preserves the energetic persona /personality as the self-consciousness within the mind that has taken over the being and replaced all common sense and self-honesty with the fuzzy logic of the consumerism system, where it’s all about 'winning' and 'losing', all about "me, me, me" and my self-interest.


Ironically, self-interest is not even in the interest of a being as such, it is only in the interest of a personality, a want, a need, a desire, and in essence in the interest of the system, because that is what the system wants:

consumers preoccupied with consuming more and more and more, consumers in fear of loss, consumers in competition, consumers possessed with their apparent possessions, consumers blinded in the mind and trapped within themselves, because that will make sure that the system is not challenged, that will make sure that the energy-game continues within and the power-games continue without; and as we consume ourselves and each-other, the system consumes the earth and the resources that are here for all through logistics of inequality and disregard for life - and it won't stop UNLESS we stop.

So - even though it's a simple point and actually self-evident if one in fact observe the actuality of reality within and without, it's not going to be easy to re-educate the world about what energy is and how polarity energetics operate, especially due to the brainwashing done through preying on man's delusions of grandeur:

where not only the money-system with money as energy, but also spirituality/religion and science/technology: present 'energy' to be something 'miraculous', something 'out there', something like 'god', something that promises 'higher dimensions' and transcendence to multiple universes –
when in fact we do not even understand energy within and as ourselves and this one universe we find ourselves in; we fail to regard and common-sensically study the multidimensional physical laws of this one existence as our world, of the one universe each has in its custody as our physical body; and yet we 'reach out to the stars' and have all these great hopes and expectations and projections of dreams and desires about some profound experience 'out there' somewhere...trying to possess ‘more energy’, but the more we try to possess, the more we become possessed: by and as energy.


This shows the extent to which we exist in the mental and manifest our world through the mind, imposing our mental wants, needs and desires onto the physical reality both within and without – in spite of the evidence that nothing we've ever created has made any real, substantial difference or has brought any break-through in terms of the veils we've covered-up our existence with, both within and without.

And the more we seek and try to find, the more we delude ourselves and the further we distance ourselves from the answer - the answer which has always been here: as ourselves and this existence as our creation.




I commit myself to exploring and investigating in self-honesty and common sense how energy functions and operates, so that I may understand and expose the energetic traps we have deceived ourselves into, both individually and collectively as humanity;

to re-educate ourselves and each-other as to how we can take back the power we abdicate to the mental through our existence of separation, fear, self-interest and greed;

to re-educate ourselves as to how we’ve used and abused words to mislead ourselves and each-other with energetic experiences of ‘heaven’ and ‘hell’, ‘reward’ and ‘punishment’, ‘superiority’ and ‘inferiority’, ‘positive’ and ‘negative’: towards only 'our' individual desires created and supported through this consumerism system in separation from life where we create our relationships in separation from life as ourselves and each-other and only from the starting-point of our wants /needs /desires -

so that we may see how we have been manifesting the experience of ourselves individually and collectively as this world, and finally begin to develop and establish actual caring relationships with ourselves to begin with, with the physical, the earth, each-other;
through self-honestly investigating how we came to be who, what and how we are within ourselves and our participation in all our relationships in the world, investigating how we abdicate our authority and responsibility to others whom we then spite and blame when we don't get what we want - but never consider giving it to ourselves, becoming it as ourselves, living the solution as ourselves.

I commit myself to investigating and forgiving = giving back to myself: all points I have separated myself from through 'positive' or 'negative' interpretations as energetically charged experiences that I either seek/desire or fear/avoid:

because such energetic relationships indicate that I am making myself subject to relationships /to 'others' to fulfil me and will blame others/my world when I don't get what I want.
When in fact I am the one making myself subject to such defined polarity points and am thus mind-controlled by my own hand, through my accepted and allowed definitions, interpretations, perceptions, through a mind that was conditioned and formed not by me myself but by the rules of this world, this system, this energetic prison of existence to which I have subjected myself - instead of utilizing the mind to create me in self-awareness as life, as self-creation, in self-responsibility, in full regard and consideration of the whole as my context of existence, thus also investigating, understanding and considering the cause and effect of my existence not only for myself, but also for all that is here.


I commit myself to living the realization and sharing the understanding of what Jesus showed: that if you are found wanting, you cannot enter the kingdom of heaven. Why? Because you are wanting the kingdom of heaven, yet you do not give it, you do not become it, you do not live it. And because when you want, you're saying that you do not have. Thus you cannot give. And a want is by design always remaining a want, a need, a desire, a projection; because one has already defined and accepted that one does not have.

I commit myself to bringing forth a new way of life, a new world system based on the principle of oneness and equality – so that we may GIVE to all what we would like to receive, love our neighbour as ourself, and become like the children in expressing, exploring, sharing, embracing all that is here, living in every moment, having FUN!

I commit myself to bringing forth a new system that will assist man to let go of the delusional and abusive ideas of ownership, possession, wants and needs, desires and fears – a new system that will show that fear is a deliberate and deceptive creation used and abused to manipulate and justify the inequality and exploitation of life that is being accepted and allowed.

I commit myself to sharing the common sense that in a world system based on the value of life, where the oneness and equality of life is practically honoured and applied in all possible ways: all can have and all can give, all can participate equally in the formation and transformation of our world into what is best for all, all can be Here as equals of Life in this One reality we all share;
and that within this, each one can be the best one can be, realizing that equality and the value of life are not measured through what one do or the abilities and talents one have, but through who one is within every moment of participation, who one is in the context of the whole, who one is in the face of everyone, who one is in self-realization as life.

I commit myself to bringing forth a new monetary/management system for our world, where money is no longer an energetic thing that we try and possess and end-up possessed and governed by; but instead a system where we transform money into a tool of equal distribution, equal access, equal opportunity, equal power = within this giving money the value of life and transforming money from a tool of abuse and inequality into a tool of life-support and equality. That is what god would do, that is what Life what want.

So why are we not stepping up as humanity to do what it takes to take back the power we’ve abdicated to the systems of this world? The answer is simple: as long as we, within ourselves, are governed and driven by the same principles that run the world out there: we will continue pursuing self-interest in greed, we will continue existing in accepted fear and power-games of ‘superiority’-‘inferiority’, we will continue with our delusions of perceived ‘control’ or ‘power’, waiting for the world to change before we change.

I commit myself to stopping this self-delusion within myself, and aligning myself to my decision of who I am in the face of existence, standing-up to live and bring forth: oneness and equality of life as the highest possible condition for the birthing of LIFE in this existence.
I commit myself to sharing the common sense that it is time we re-consider what we place value into, re-evaluate the ways of our participation in existence, and re-form our world within and without so that we may give life back the value it actually has – give ourselves and each-other the value of life.

Obviously, that would be best for all, and best for each one individually. So let’s get real, let’s make ourselves real as life, that is in fact the calling of life, that is what self-realization is about: the actuality of who we are, the actuality of our reality, the actuality of our creation.

It’s time we take responsibility for our creation and the effects of our cause. Is this really what we want to leave behind for the children to come? Is this really what we want to return to?

Time to become self-honest; time to look ourselves in the ‘I’ – and See what is here, blatantly manifest in this world for all to See.



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